Universal Shifts of
Events in My Life
Sydney, Australia these days!
Beam of Energy of
Light Sun of Parallel Earth (covered by pentagons) in my room of our
Centre, picture is taken by me in Feb. 2010. Pay attention on the Rod
on the right.
Invisible to the eye,
(but not to
the camera), New Consciousness, accompanied by pentagons, is building
up above Elliott Heads
rivermouth and our Monroe Centre, Queensland, Australia, 12 Jan. 2010
are not Your Physical Body; You are Not the Physical Matter: You are
Energy! And Everything what happened to You, happened for One Good
Reason: to Merge Your Energy with the Energies of Others, with the
Energies of Earths, with the Energies of Universes! The Mixed Energy is
the Final Product of all Universal, Galactic and Planetary Games. The
this Blending Process for this Universe will be in December 2013: the
Final Stage of the Universal Shift!
Not visible to the
eye, Energy and
a Pentagon, monitoring device over Elliott Heads rivermouth, 22 Jan
2010. It seems like a UFO behind those clouds. It's not dark at all,
it's a bright morning. Taken by ordinary digital camera.
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is an illusion and Real is only the Creative Force, but the Creative
Force is created from illusions with a lot of pain, pain, pain."
human aspect can be adjusted in focus to a much more concentrated
point, offering potentials of power and action too immense and
unfathomable (too deep to be measured) to be considered lightly.
Second, the other, nonhuman forms of the same energy system might be
drawn upon if the need arises. With the above tucked away, it is
possible to get to the "hands on" (direct experience) phase...
The organized (M) Field radiation of a single individual can, if
broad-banded enough, could be many thousands times greater than that of
is an extract from Monroe's "Ultimate Journey" p. 172-174:
"... This drive I have . . . to
help humankind. Where does this fit
We can tell you something about that, though you may not
I need to know.
Service to humankind might be classified as self-serving, but in
your case, because the effect spreads
so widely, this does not
apply. The more we improve humankind, the more our prospects
One major improvement is equal to one hundred
You mean one tall mountain is equal to a low range of hills.
Except that the mountain reaches higher.
So this service—this improvement—is worth doing?
of the bonding we identify as love? Where does this energy fit in?
My friend, we have so much of this bonding built up to take us to
infinity and through it. We take it with us as we go. It is the major
energy base for our intellect. What you now perceive as love clarifies,
not stultifies (to cause to appear ridiculous). It
incorporates both pain and
pleasure; it is the union of opposites to create a whole. And you
found plenty of love this lifetime, once you dispensed with
must be a
tremendous amount of experience stored here, in you . . . in us. How
many lifetimes are there?
A thousand perhaps, or more. We stopped counting long ago. Every
possible situation is here, every emotion. There is nothing you can
encounter in an Earth life that isn't stored here . . . in fifty
what am I doing,
going through it all over again?
find one final
piece. And you are very close. When you have it, we lift off. We shall
We don't know. You will have to tell us.
see . . .
But—are you certain
you have the right one? I have an idea that there's another one being
human here at this time —another one out of this I-There of
That is so. That is your reserve or substitute, you might say. A
backup. But you are first in line.
other . . . is it—she—female?
I arrange to meet her?
Later perhaps. She would seem like a long-lost sister."
I am that "reserve, substitute, a backup". You don't have to believe
it. The future will show! I prefer to stay away from this kind of
Planetary Game. It's too overwhelming for me!
Like Robert Monroe, I do not spread Love and Light: in this
highly unbalanced society
it's pointless, but I try to spread Balance and give the example of
Platonic, Unconditional Love
between 2 people: R.Monroe and his wife Nancy and give also
the description of Unconditional Love from Robert's
point of view (from his book) on Home Page. These
possible though I personally didn't experienced this kind of Love.
Robert was a man and most men do swear and for those who doesn't like
language and who thinks that spiritually advanced people don't swear,
is an extract from R.Monroe "Far Journeys" p. 254 (1982), where he
this, the female with
a propensity for perception has taken this manipulative
broad extremes through hundreds of years of cultural evolution. Those
succumb to the illusion of permanency have no choice but to lie back
and take what is coming. Simply put, one fuck doesn't make a
A baby maybe..."
another example on p. 271- 273 in "Catapult: The Biography of Robert
A.Monroe" by Bayard Stockton, written in 1989 about why Bob never
about coming crises, though he knew about them very well:
"Bob talks quietly of
the consensus (collective opinion) of reputable seers,
channelers, people of insight, that grave
times are ahead as the millennium wanes (passes).
Non-Physical Friends tell me practically every day: 'Don't
you see it? It's coming. The Wave of Change is building. It's
visible now, and it's going to get a lot bigger. ' "
Is Bob, at root, talking about Earth Changes, such as
channeled by Edgar Cayce, in the sense of massive geological upheaval?
Bob: "It doesn't look like it, as it's presented to me. I see
empty cities. Economic collapse. (that's what started
happening in the USSR in the 90's, LM). My Friends tell
me, 'If you believe anything less, you're kidding yourself.' Our
economy is based on the fact that if we don't buy more in 1990 than we
did in 1989, the country's in trouble.
We're conned into unnecessary buying. Our "democracy" allows the
predators to work, because 'that's the way it always has been.' All men
(and women, LM)
not created equal. One Man, One Vote is a concept we have been sold
emotionally. How much pressure can our civilization take? When too many
pots boil over...I think we have 10 years, maximum...We're a domino
system. The message is, 'Enjoy what you have now. Now is the time. Soon
enough there won't be any.' "
Is the Supra-Conscious issuing a license to be escapist, hedonistic
(desire for pleasure and avoidence of pain), thus encouraging the
Decline and Fall? That, of course, was not the intent. It was a purely
personal message for Bob Monroe.
did Monroe not go public with warnings? Others
have been saying the same.
Bob: "Consciousness can help, 'But I don't know of any single event
that would cause even an appreciable segment of the population to
achieve Conscious awareness'..."
Those are the words of someone who might be called the rankest
(complete) cynic. Yet Bob Monroe's statement merits examination.
Serious people are convinced he does voyage to There (higher densities, LM)
and come back with information which is arguably not solely of his own
only way you can superimpose another reality on humans is to hit them
repeatedly with that two-by-four between the eyes."
(I don't know what
Bob meant. I
remember how Don Juan was forcefully hitting Carlos Castaneda between
the shoulder blades to move the Assemblage Point and to make him to
change the reality, but we all are so afraid of pain! LM).
...basic issues raised by Monroe's outright questioning of the God
concept. Bob would never engage in a doctrinal argument with a believer
in God. As always, he says, "Don't take it from me; go out there and
see for yourself," which is a very humble suggestion. He
even gives Gateway students the key to the Library, the repository (a
warehouse) of all Knowledge.
known as Akashic Records, LM). It's not the act of an
ego-driven dogmatist who has much to protect.
Monroe truly wishes other would join him out There to overcome the
loneliness of his position, and report back to Mankind (and Womankind, LM)
what they learn.
Monroe's quiet contention is that he has gone beyond belief
to the Knowing...Monroe has flatly told Gateway audiences the main task
of the non-physical Friends is to protect and help the Explorers. If
people were able to overcome their inculcated (instilled) defenses and
try to accept what they could understand of Bob's own Know System (from his books, LM),
there would still be the problem of language. All of what he observes
and all communication when Bob is exploring is non-verbal. Translation
into human language and therefore into our understanding is difficult
less than catastrophe probably won't change our awareness. I secretly
think that's why it's going to happen."
Russian looking log house at TMI was used by
Robert Monroe - a Radiochief
gave me an emotional
turmoil, when I saw it in TMI brochure
a few years back (before coming to TMI).
always wanted to live
in a Russian log house and I never did. Now I
what happened to me, happened for one good reason: to mix my energies
with someone else's energy of some different energy of a place, planet
of a Universe! For years I didn't know about it, but I am aware of it
others, I wanted to have shortcuts, for example: to have a personal
teacher to raise my awareness faster or, at least, to know about my
other lives, about myself from qualified people. I tried many things:
Astrology, Kinesiology, Tarot, even attempted to have a session with
Dolores Cannon. But everything failed.
I know that I have Alters, but what these Alters do, I don't know.
story is a long story :
like a story of a struggling humanity on/off
Earth at the Endgame Time. These are the memories which I was allowed
to keep: the rest is blocked. They are, probably, so gruesome or so
sensitive that releasing of them makes my invisible Controllers scared.
The info below from C.Castaneda's "The Fire from Within", p.X is
related to both of us: Robert Monroe and me, the difference is only
that R.Monroe could 'see' for a number of years before he died and I
Explanation of What it is to 'See' Something, Which is not Visible to
the Ordinary Eyes
Juan had already explained to me, in his teachings for the right
side (of the body), a great deal about the nagual and about seeing. I
seeing to be the capacity of human beings to enlarge their perceptual
field until they are capable of assessing not only the outer
appearances but the essence of everything. He had also explained that
seers see man as a field of energy, which looks like a luminous egg.
The majority of people, he said, have their fields of energy divided
into two parts. A few men and women have four or sometimes three
Because these people are more resilient than the average man, they can
become naguals after learning to see."
My life is a typical example of what is happening to a Blind-Folded
Earth Human Female. I am still in a female's body, though I don't feel
anymore, not the same frequency is coming out of my body. I feel that
I'm an Androgynous being, that I have male and female energies in equal
proportions. I didn't know for many years that the more physical and
emotional pain you experience, the close you coming to the point of
becoming an Androgynous being. Russians have been kept behind the Iron
Curtain (like a huge jail) for the main reason: to create a white race,
who would go anywhere (positive or negative place) to any corner of our
Universe, because they were
so pissed off with living in a jail. And I am one them!
There is an article I've read recently on http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/cienciareal/cienciareal28.html
Crowley and the "Sirians", where I've read:" Amazon
cultures were known to be able to breed without the use of a male.
human body is primarily androgynous, a separation of the
sexes is not theoretically necessary for procreation...Their culture
and the general goddess culture of that time period was supplanted by a
patriarchal culture that has attempted to subjugate women to the most
unbearable of conditions. The male forces established control..."
Food for thought.
For a number of years I've known that I was that Blind-Folded long -
lost counterpart of Robert Monroe, the founder of The Monroe Institute
USA, Virginia and the author of 3 books: "Journeys Out of the Body"
(later he prefered another name for this book "Journeys Into the
"Far Journeys" and "Ultimate Journey", but I could do nothing about it,
I, personally, didn't plan it, the higher part of me did.
find another website (apart from ours) which would analize R.Monroe's
books in such a
detail? I doubt it. That is the proof! To my knowledge I don't know of
any other Russian woman, who would claim to be Robert Monroe's
substitute! And it's easy to prove by looking at the energy field of a
Those who've been manipulating me for most of my life know that too
mean Illuminati, all kind of humans, shamans/sorcerers and aliens,
especially Reptilians and among them British Royal Family.
But for many years I had no idea who I was. As
I wrote somewhere, that I consider my life here on
boring compare to Bob Monroe's life, because
I can't give even one
example of my other lives or astral travels like R.Monroe had,
but it doesn't mean that I didn't have them.
In R.Monroe's "Ultimate
Journey", p. 51, he described the meeting with
the most evolved being on Earth, Androgynous Being. R. Monroe asked him
a question and get this answer:
"You insist others obtain their own
answers. Why you should be different?"
Well, this is the reason why I've been getting all the answers myself.
If R.Monroe's out-of-body experiences were initiated and he remembered
them and described them in his books (he met more evolved parts of
himself and discovered a lot and that wasn't easy). I didn't have this
advantage, never had OBE consciously (logically I know
that everyone has OBE's, we all go to sleep and have dreams every
"Cosmic Journeys" by Rosalind McKnight, p.162:
of the human
self are working their way into balance during the sleep state. This
includes the physical, etheric, emotional, mental, and spiritual. Those
individuals who are living more in the energy level of the first two
and a half dimensions are more closely connected to the earth/time
dimension, and their dreams will be much more on a functional level.
"When their lower energies
are balanced temporarily, they can go into the higher levels, but
rarely remember them.
They mainly remember the dreams that are more earth-oriented, which is
a working out of emotional and mental blocks or a balancing of energies
in these lower-vibratory levels."
After reading this info (and more) I assume that I work
lower vibratory levels of myself and Earth, like exploring life
underground where a lot of negativity is concentrated or going through
a Black Hole (not a very pleasant job to do, but most of females have
to do it: they are more balanced than males). But occasionally I have
dreams of a higher nature, usually after some major events in my life
and wake up in tears.
So I presume that I visit higher dimensions then, but mostly don't
remember dreams or out-of body (or rather into the body) experiences of
higher levels. What a relief!
I never had a bright luminous Being out there in the Cosmos to teach me
something, never had a personal
teacher in spiritual matters. I was always self-taught, natural, made
thousands of mistakes and learned from
them how to become more balanced and always thought I
would never make it through.
While R.Monroe was busy with astral matters, writing books and trying
to find more money to run the programs with students at The Monroe
Institute, I was thrown from one
Timeline (Parallel Universes) to another,
without me being aware of it and half of the time I didn't know where I
was and what I was doing (the same is happening to my son).
The controllers are still keeping most of us
in this state.
Unfortunately, most of my memory of Astral travels is still blocked ,
but not for long now! I know that I'm psychic
(we all psychic in
various degrees). More psychic people have been heavily used on Mars
other Planets apart from Earth and I suspect that I am one of them.
If you think that being a long-lost sister, a back-up of R.Monroe makes
my life easier and more enjoyable, that people would adore me, be open
and friendly with me and I
would have a lot of like-minded friends like it was in the case of
R.Monroe, you are making a big mistake. R.Monroe would often feel like
a lonely being, especially after Nancy transitioned.
My life most of
the time was really boring. I've been alone in my efforts to
I was born on 11.11.1946, in Moscow, in former USSR, in the family of
Russians. If you are familiar with Carlos Castaneda books, you would
know that naguals are the leaders and could be females as well as. They
have a double luminous ball in
their energy field, compare to an ordinary human (who has a single
ball) and they are not always become sorcerers, but leading humanity in
some other ways.
Each one of us, humans, is a Higher Self for a bunch of your personal
Alters on the lowest 3rd density (though your Higher Self is on the 5th
Density. For a sorcerer, your Higher Self would look like a big jelly
moving through the Space, but your physical body would look like a
luminuous ball or an egg moving through the Earth energy field.
Like R.Monroe, I never was really keen on astrology/numerology and
other metaphysical sciences, had a couple of
astrology charts done on me and none of them really covered all of me
(just a small part), the most important features were missing. How can
you make a precise astrology chart anyway, if you don't know the time
of birth and nobody knows inc. me?
Or if a person has 300 other different personalities-Alters. And also
position of the stars and planets of 3rd Density is not the same as the
position of the stars and planets on the 4th Density and we are no
longer in 3rd density: we moved into the 4th one.
So I gave up trying to find out more about myself this way. After
reading "Matrix 5"trilogy and learning about the existence of
astrology, I noticed how most of M 5 readers became very professional
in astrology and very biased by it (not a step without astrologically
calculating it), fearful, restricting their own freedom
when they heavily rely on astrology. What a life! Reminds me a
Reptilian life style: they don't make a step in life without their
ass-trologers approving it! I presume there is nothing else
men can rely on, but astrology. And what about intuition? Do males have
it? It's different with women, they do and they use it! I also didn't
like Matrix 5 trilogy author's attitude to judge someone by her/his
astrological birth signs. We and our Total Selves can do unpredictable
things: no astrology can
cover it. The more evolved you are the more unpredictable you are, the
more Life Loops, Booby traps you've already overcome.
What I've discovered for myself (it wasn't difficult), that we, humans
(all of us)
have more than one personality in us, and these
personalities are females and males (that was confirmed by the books I
was reading, esp. R.Monroe's books).
The number of these personalities
is different in every human. This condition is called Multiple
Personality Disorder (MPD) in medical circles, but it's not a Disorder:
it's the expansion of our Beings! You can find descriptions of multiple
personalitities in us in many books and I have a few links on this
website of the authors, who is writing a lot about it,
I post full books or extracts from them or give the names of their
esp. R.Monroe's books. I also post some material on MPD on
Youtube, because it's important that we all know it and would not be
scared of it, of our Expansion. R.Monroe used the word expand
in his Affirmation.
I didn't find in the medical
books/journals/magazines or any other books/materials that we all have
Multiple Personality Disorder (read Order). But I found that parts of
us exist on many higher
levels, not just Earth and a confirmation of these thoughts in books
of Robert Monroe, Cathy O'Brian, Brice Taylor, Rosalind McKnight,
Michael Talbot and many other writers. Everyone seems to be scared of
people with MPD or being very upset if they are diagnosed with MPD,
without being aware of the Truth, that we all have it.
Medical profession interpret MPD as being crazy. That's how
taught, noone told them that MPD is an expansion of ourselves.
MPD has many names for it (up to 300), which is practically all mental
'diseases' (for more details, please, go on the link :
Multiple Personality Disorder
Next of my discoveries was that all human females are forced by
circumstances (or males) to become prostitutes, if not in this
universe, then in one of Parallel Universes; if not the original Self,
then one of her Alters/other personalities. And often human females are
not aware that one of their personalities is a prostitute, like that
was described in books of Cathy O"Brien, Kathleen Sullivan, Brice
Taylor and other writers. The females-writers didn't know that one or
more of their personalities were forced by their male-handlers to live
a life of a prostitute. This way females supply energy for males to
function and if you eliminate that source (like brothels or marriges),
human males would start dying out.
I also noticed that not many human females are writing about their
travels and I'm not surprised: most of their energy is sucked out of
them by constant artificial pregnancies, miscarriages and children,
often mind-controlled sexual
activities and serving and supplying the males with their energy for their
travels and for life on Earth in general, without their knowledge. They
are so tired that there
is no energy left to have conscious Out of Body experiences,
remembering them and writing books about them, unless you are
a female -
sorcerer (though M 5 author
thinks differently and propagate his false ideas everywhere,
time will show who is telling the Truth). The Grand Plan of this Game
is not to make human females to be aware of it, not to overpower human
males, which can be
I felt relieved since I've known from R. Monroe books that nothing was
sacred. This writing is more like the sum of the most memorable
impressions and sensations I had in many Timelines. I know that
there are Parallel universes we all are creating and living in, which
we might not be aware of.
The prove of my participation in other Timelines, other Parallel
realities is years of missing time I had, when I didn't know what I was
doing. I was observing the same situation with my Australian and
Russian family members. I was always reluctant to look for a
hypnotherapist, a psychologist or a psychiatrist for fear that they
could reprogram me instead of helping to restore my memories (like some
of them did to other abductees, for instance Andy Pero) or maybe I was
programmed not to seek help at all and to find all the answers myself.
In this story I will have a constant
comparison of my living conditions, of my development with Robert
Monroe's life, where you would see some drastic differences and some
similarities. I feel it would be interesting for you to see.
Different people have different impressions of the same event, this
story is my impressions, my feelings, this is the story of my life seen
through my NEW EYES, NEW AWARENESS!
If you ever wondered about the atmosphere of alien planets I'll invite
you to the hub of it : Moscow of 1940's, 50's and 60's! These were
the years of replacing old type of physical bodies with the new
genetically designed human bodies capable to survive rapid changes of
frequencies of the planet, able to travel to the distant corneres of
this and other Universes, the bodies, which could be occupied by alien
entities and cope with more programming. The population of the former
Soviet Union was so mind controlled that when Stalin finally died most
of the people were crying, inc. me and my mother, because
most everyone was
hypnotised with the same idea: Stalin was the best person in the world
(group consciousness idea). I was about 5, in the kindergarten.
I had a taste of living half of my life (30 years) in one of the most
unbalanced places, named Soviet Union!
Population of the planets of Orion (Reptilian) Empire doesn't believe
in God, they
are taught to believe in their Queen only!
People of the former Soviet
Union were not taught to believe in God, but to believe their
(males-Kings) the Communist Party leaders (though churches secretly
functioned then and now religions are blossoming and taking over the
government). And nothing really changed much since then, just people
have more material things and Church is ruling the country together
with the Nationalist Party.
The Soviet Union was the country of boring looking cities, endless
jails and concentration camps, military underground installations,
medical and all kind of "scientific" institutions on the surface,
underground and underwater.
As a child, I've been experimented on a lot in those
medical establishments. I couldn't understand why
did I have to go through a series of medical experiments if I wasn't
sick? And most people I've seen as a child in the USSR were in all kind
of military uniforms : all kind of soldiers, pilots,
sailors, builders, firemen, medical, plant workers, miners,
Institutes/Laboratories collaborators, college students, schools and
even party members are still in the same dark suit like 70
on (that shows how alien this
place was). Children, starting from a
kindergarten, school, orphanage have been
dressed in the same black and dark brown uniform (millions of children
dressed exactly the same like in alien societies). And I was one of
them. Later I noticed that China looked exactly the same, only the
uniform was different.
Here is a huge difference between my and R.Monroe's upbringing. He
lived in a middle class family, I lived in the poor family. He had
loving and very well educated parents, I didn't have parents, who could
love anyone or were highly educated. Robert Monroe was a white male and
lived in America, but I was a white
female and lived in Moscow, USSR, where all people were envious of life
Orion Empire with all their expertise already existed in the Soviet
Union right from 1917 (the time of the Revolution), it's just got
expanded over the years !
The Soviet Union: sealed World with "communities" everywhere and
constant slogans 'we are all the same and we are all equal' or
'Everything on Earth belongs to all people' (and nothing really belongs
to you) or 'Lenin and Stalin are our fathers and the best people in the
world' or 'Party is a captain of our ship'. This kind of stuff I was
bombarded with from birth to the day I left the country in 1976. Later
these slogans turned up in the songs we, as pioneers, had to sing,
because nothing else was available at schools and pioneer camps (a
preparation of children for military service).
Later I found the only thing to be true : NOTHING really BELONGED TO
ME, EVEN MY PHYSICAL BODY !
A person living on Earth needs to have some basic possessions. It is
pretty tough to live without a shelter and food in cold countries like
Whenever you turn TV it was/is the same picture: party members sitting
in the rows of chairs in big halls, occasionally
apploding all together, having
meetings every week. The hypnotised audience was/is listening of the
next speaker of the same boring bullshit and it's on and on, the same
and the same. Every day, even now after 55 years, if I turn TV on to
see Russian News it would be some kind
of meeting of hypnotised numerous party members or a board of directors
making decisions or arrival of the
party leader/modern president to some country. Or, for years, they
would still show the same boring pictures and talks about World War 1
or 2 mixed with religious 'events' or killing of the Csar and his
family or boring Court sessions, bank bankrapcies or 150 days just
about 'Gasprom Affairs' or 50 years of "Sector Gaza" Affairs.
That would drive a bloke to drink and that what Russians do: drink and
drink a lot. My brother, my father and my sister became alcoholics, but
not my mother and me.
How many times I witnessed an endless line of naive, programmed people
waiting to see the mummies of 2 Soviet murderers : Lenin and Stalin in
the Mausoleum in RED SQUARE in Moscow (monitored by Reptilian world
underneath the Kremlin complex). And I was one of this visitors in my
Here is more info about this place from http://englishrussia.com/?m=200901&paged=2 :
is an ancient tomb situated on the Red Square of Moscow, right in the
centermost point of the city with a real mummy inside. Yes,
ancient of course, it’s only 70 years old, but still there is
and a mummy. A mummy of Lenin, the leader of the first Russian
communists who lead the country to the revolution and broke out the
Tsarist reign thus wanting to establish the freedom to all, like, poor
people. This is what every Soviet Russian kid was taught at school from
his (and her) early age. The name of Lenin was considered the most
together with his depiction. If the schoolboy got as bold as, like,
drawing some funny whiskers in the text-book for the Lenin’s
he could be severe punished, his parents summoned to school and then
the special report could be sent to their job which could cause them
being fired or even imprisoned. In other words everything concerning
Lenin’s name was a holy cow. Same way was about his tomb.
was a real shrine for the multi-national people of Soviet Union.
Hundred thousands people when came to Moscow just had to visit the so
called “mausoleum” and to get a fast glance on the
mummy of the Lenin
lying under the bullet-proof thick glass. To do that people had to
stand many hours in line through all the Red Square, but it was
considered worth of this. The most
curious line in this set is
the line to the Lenin’s Mausoleum - you can see it on the
with the Red Square - one could think that Russian people
shouldn’t stay any more in line to visit the Lenin, the idol
the communism beliefs when they have such a ruined society around, but
no - people were still eager to stand many hours line to visit Lenin
too. Probably they wanted to say some swear words right in his face?"
It’s interesting but even now, twenty
years later after the Soviet Union started collapsing, the tomb is
still at it’s place right on the Red Square and the mummy
body of Lenin
is still inside. And there are even still lines of visitors waiting for
their turn to pay a visit to the Communist leader. The tomb itself was
build of the red stone which was mined only in one place in Russia, in
the village Shoksha of Karelia, and is being highly estimated by the
luxury architectural designers from all over the Europe. They order
this stone even to Paris for some decorations, and so from this stone
this Lenin’s mausoleum was built. This modern look of this
wasn’t born at once. There was a special Russia-wide contest
best design of the future “mausoleum structure. Some of the
those works from the archives are here today, this is how it could
Mausoleum and 1st of May Moscow (forced)
witnessed for so many years (day of all workers, but, in fact, an
important Masonic, satanic ritual day)
suspicion of each other,
victim-victimizer mode, constant negative emotions were the norm in
those days, pretty much the same as the atmosphere in New York's and
other major city airports (and not just the airports) in USA these
days. Well, this, alone, makes Russians much tougher than Americans,
esp. after 'Perectroika' in 90's! They've been prepared to economic
crises and earth changes well in advance!
USSR in 80-90's has been the peak of relocation of humanity from Earth
to a newly organised planet with similar, but not the same energies,
which is supposed to start a new Planetary Game in 3rd , physical
Density, but possibly in another, parallel universe.
have our negative (reptilian and other negative races of Orion is other negatively
charged star systems, who consider
themselves above humans and everyone else are Power/Ego oriented) and positive
features. We all have Alters/Other personalities in us as well as a
lot of Holographic Life Imprints of other people's lives (whoever lived
Earth) and all is collected in Akashic records (Universal Storage).
Imprints have been chosen by us at the time of preparation to Earth
experiences on a higher density to give us some foundation, not to make
us disoriented by the complex Planetary Game. These Imprints we can
also have during the time we spend on Earth (according to Dolores
I couldn't understand why everyone (inc. my mother), everywhere
(kindergartens, orphanages, boarding schools, camps were
hating me for repeating what my
mother used to say about the hypocracy, greed and corruption of the
Soviet Government, about the male domination in the country, poverty
and unbearable conditions people (inc. us) had to live in, about
special privileges some people had in that country and others
lived outside home 90% of
my childhood and teenage years).
And as a child I believed that that was the only life in existence. But
my mother would say the opposite to what official media (TV, Radio,
newspapers) has been spreading and I believed that too. Orionized
males/females' negative behaviour was pointed out to me by my
mother when I was a child, but often I saw her behaving the same way,
which made me even more confused. She lived by "do as you told not as I
I've been mind-controlled to
repeat her words like a parrot in the
kindergarten/camps/schools/orphanages to cause children and adults to
avoid me or just shut me up. This caused my mother a lot of
children were in the same situation: by saying the truth to other
people they jeopardized life of their outspoken family members, causing
the hatred in return. But children were taught by society (inc.
parents) always to say the Truth. I
remember that most of the time spent in the classrooms of different
boarding schools and orphanages, I 've been phasing. It means not even
present in the room , just my body would. Some people call it
I was taught by the society to say the Truth and
I thought I did and that was good, but 'saying the Truth' from the
point of KGB meant to spy-report-betray freedom loving people. I was
too young to see it. This was
a paradox, a confusion for me. Only years later I realised that those
were not my thoughts, not my experiences, that I was repeating someone
else's ideas like a parrot. I didn't know that I was programmed like a
computer to spit out someone else's opinion (and because my son later
would be doing
exactly the same it's not really hard to work out that there is a
common pattern of mind control for every genuine human and it
originated from a
negative source). I also didn't know then that one of my mother's
Alters was a freedom loving person and a victim, but another of her
Alters was my most cruel handler-victimizer, who would quite often get
physical and unbearably insulting with all of her children inc. me.
This kind of behaviour she learned as a child at the government running
orphanage (she was treated this way and didn't know what love was all
like hundreds of other children) and this pattern of rough attitude
spreaded from generation to generation among millions.
Now I know that these
reptillian techniques have been used all over the world, in every
country, for thousands of years and not just in Russia. Most of the
humans went through
victim-victimizer stages like all of us.
Exactly the same pattern of victim/victimizer I would observe in myself
son's behaviour in Australia. The reporting of my personal life to
people by my son over the phone I paricularly disliked. That proves to
me that all the
techniques used by the Mind Controllers on us are the same for every
country and they came from the same source: Reptilians/Draconians. That
was the same pattern of mind control and government training of my
mother, sister, brother, my husband, me and my son had, without any of
us being aware
of it. After reading books of R.Monroe in 1996, to my total
I found the answer to all of this: victim-victimizer activities create
more Expansion and Loosh/Unconditional Love in us, believe it or not!
And this white energy is constantly skimmed of the energy of the planet
Earth to be used elsewhere and to make this planet permanently
unbalanced. This is the part of the Game we are playing.
At the age of 16 I finally had my own tiny room, without a bathroom and
even that was considered a luxury.
I hardly ever had any privacy, even now, being monitored, followed by
government agents of the Soviet Union and later Russia, Australia,
Italy, US, England and other countries I've ever lived in or visited.
monitored by my family members in Russia and Australia without me being
aware of it for most of my life. And I thought: why me??? What did I do
wrong? I am not a secret agent for anyone or something of that nature.
Years later, after a thorough research into Alternative
literature in Australia, it
dawned on me why every my step was monitored so heavily. It's because
of my connection to Robert Monroe!!!
1) My mother in our home in Australia in 1990;
2) my mother and my son Robert in our home in 1990
My son Robert at 3 years of age
My mother played a crucial role in my childhood and not my father, who
was kicked out of our family by my mother, when
I was little (she
couldn't tolerate male domination and his sexual drive for his
daughters: me and my sister). I will say a few words about her first.
I, personally, never met someone like her. She had only a high school
education, never read any books or had a library of books for us or
teach us anything: she was too impationed and had no love for humans or
animals. She never was into
Occult/Religion/Science/Metaphysics/Communism/New Age, but very good in
critisizing everyone and everything; she was not a
advanced Spiritual Soul (far from it), but, nevertheless, I learned a
her inspite of her unbearable nature. She was a very practical person
and was raising and handling 3
children alone, being a heavily wounded invalid- war veteran. She
afford to raise 3 children on a tiny pension, that's why we lived in
government running institutions most of the time. But she was a very
independent, simple and strong woman, though mentally/emotionally very
passed away years ago.
My mother never had any family, never knew when her real birthday was,
never celebrated or even reminded us about our birthdays.
As a baby, she was found by some people in the market place in winter
in one of
the cities of Siberian Far East near the border with China after the
revolution in 1917. That was a common thing in the years of starvation
and chaos, artificially created by the upper echelon to move masses of
humans from here to different Universes.
A mother would be
forced to give up a child, if she could not feed, shelter it or the
child was illegitimate: that would mean a lot of humiliation from the
relatives and the locals if a female would keep the child (things still
haven't changed much all over the World). I know single mothers
(even in Australia),
who are despised by
others, especially males, just for having and raising children alone
me "Matrix 5" author). Females have been constantly artificially
the Controllers and the biggest fear for most of the women and men in
Russia and other parts of the world has been for a female to become
It's a huge scheme and there is a reason for it: the
expansion of us into other realities, other universes and populate
another planet, which is getting ready for a new Planetary Game in the
3rd physical Density, but most likely in the closest physical
Reptillian mothers of Orion Empire, on the other hand, don't have a
maternal instinct at all and abandon their children (without being
criticized) to be brought up by Reptilian males who is using them for
entertainment inc. fight and sex.
If these children survive,
they would have no boundaries. That makes them Ultimate Warriors
according to Alex Collier's info.
The USSR reminded me Orion Empire. Many human children were also
manufactured in underground installations, maybe my mother was one of
those. Siberia has been always a big Secret, full of underground
cities and bases, anomaly/
paranormal places and space ports.
It was surprising that my mother, as a child, later was taken out of
cold Siberia and ended up in an orphanage in the best part of the
former Soviet Union: warm Yalta, Crimea near Black Sea, where she
Abductee, a Multiple
(Multiple Personality Disorder person), a
Mind-Controlled Sex - Slave and a trained Spy-Remote-Viewer. She also
had the Energy body and abilities of, what C.Castaneda called, a nagual
woman, though she was not trained as a sorcereress.
beginning of WW 2 she was chosen (together with other young females)
'trained' to participate in the 'Sacred War' (WW 2) for the
'Motherland'. That's how propaganda machine was calling the war started
by aliens, to replace humans with aliens and
humans with an old DNA for new Russians (with a new DNA),
more Portals to other worlds, as well as moving and mixing different
energies of different people/animals/ET's with different energies of
different Universes. This process will be repeated in
90's and will cause appearance of 'New Russians' of another
Now I know more about the Universal Shift, about the Planetary Game,
but my inner awakening only started about 20 years ago in
Australia through books written only in English (which was
tough to understand).
WW 2 was a major "Window of Opportunity" for ET's at that time:
they've been pretty busy for the last hundred years.
Groups of humans with their physical bodies and in spirit form have
been taken from battlefields and relocated to the new planet, so called
'Second Earth', which is not the real name. Also many
soldiers who were missing and found again or wounded and had amnesias
(no memories of previous life) were often substituted by
Sometimes, clinically dead, would be revived with another soul in the
body, permanent Walk-ins, means their bodies were used by alien, mainly
same body, but another part of the same soul or a totally foreign,
alien soul) to have at least one life before the
Planetary Game in 3rd Density was
over, which is the toughest place to be. This is a
well known process when original soul is vacating the body and another
one (alien) is getting in and that involves children too. Alex Collier
was given this info by a positive race from Andromeda and describes
this process very well, please, see Alex Collier info
On the other hand Dolores Cannon in her "Convoluted Universe", book 2,
p. 184-185 writes:
"S (Sally): ...You've
walk-ins where one soul leaves and the other comes. This isn't like
that. This wasn't actually two souls. It was just that the portion that
came in would take the volume of two souls. Double the normal amount
has come and joined with her (the client of Dolores) recently. That is
incarnated now with her.
D (Dolores): The two
S: No, there was no
was a joining, an adding. We told her twice that this new part of
herself was coming. And now it is here and now it is joined.
D: Did she know
when this happened?
S: Not consciously. But
she knew it
was going to and she prepared consciously, and that was of great
assistance. And she knows she feels different now. But had not
consciously acknowledged that there was more of her. And that it had
joined. She will now receive very much knowledge. It's not going to all
happen at once, but it will be triggered as she acclimates.
(I suspect that the same happened to me, only nobody told me
that could happen or I should prepare myself consciously. I just
compare myself before and after. Well, I presume that every case is
unique and both writers: Alex Collier and Dolores Cannon are right, LM).
D: Then when this life
is over, will she go back and not have to keep returning?
S: Right. She will stay
until her job is finished. She won't have to incarnate again.
will stay until the shift is complete (as you can see most advanced
females will be staying to help the Planetary Shift to take place, LM).
D: This place where she
came from , is that what I call the Spirit side?
S: Anything that is not
(physical), is Spirit side. There are multiple, multiple
This is not like you die and go there. It's before you incarnate, you
are there. It's just a different realm.
D: Some people consider those spirits are angels that have never
S: It's not an angel. It's a soul like everyone else. Just not
incarnated in (physical) form ... She was in form,
in a body form. She was in spirit form (spirits can
create any holographic bodyform, LM).
There is also another way of not replacing the soul, but merge with it
and influece it, which is described by Dolores Cannon in the same book
on page 208-211:
"A (Aaron, whose home
populated by grasshoper type beings):...Although sometimes we can merge
our frequency with someone else who's willing, who's already here in
human form. Sometimes there is a linkage that could be agreed to. And
so we work through them, or can work with them, advising
them or directing them (here
where the catch is, LM). It's a way of accomplishing
some of it without having to go through the birthing process...
D: It sounds as though
he is not essentially an Earth person. Is that right?
A: This was under
D: That he is really
from other places. (Yes) And he just comes to Earth occasionally?
A: Yes. He's done both.
As birthing and as
"An envelope of
instability" that also allowed him to experience human emotions he
would not come up against any other way. It was also a ruse (a clever
trick) or a bit of camouflage to make him appear normal to the outside
(a lot of people experiencing an emotional instability. All my family
had/have it, LM).
D: He said in very
he remembers having some kind of experiences with other beings. It
sounded like they were the grasshoper type (or maybe
Game is not stopping, but
moving fully into the 4th Density: I
just see the signs everywhere.
and 2) are the
pictures of Gorky St. in Moscow (major street) in 1950's, I lived at
the very end of this street and spent considerable part of my life in
Russia here. These are official pictures. In reality there were 20
times more cars and people especially in later years.
3) The entrance to one of the central Metro station in Moscow in 1950's
A Russian artist on one of the central streeets of Moscow in 1950's
Russian favorite meal - pelmeni. I remember how my mother used to teach
me how to make them.
I personally met a few aliens disgised as humans
in Russia in 2004-5, who came back to Moscow wounded
after the war to
live quite comfortable lives with a good pension, free cars and free
trips overseas and to resorts of Russia every year, married to human,
and they are still alive! They were scared by my knowing who they were
. They, the negatives, have that hypnotising ability to
confuse you, that's been done
to me many times. I've seen them at their weekly meetings: they looked
like being made of paper: a gray mass of (different to mine) weak, but
the end of 1944 my
artificially impregnated (without her knowing it), wounded in the head,
had amnesia and was taken to the hospital. There were many women
in her situation.
When she got out
of the hospital she was highly
decorated as one of the war heroes, but was given a tiny pension at
the age of 25 and sent
to Moscow to give a birth to her 'illegitimate' child (my brother) in
her later years she had highs and lows depending on the political
climate. I observed the main feature of my mother: she had no fear of
Authorities. I know that before the war she had a private meeting with
the wife of Lenin, Nadezhda Krupskaya.
Whenever she needed something like a bigger pension or a
treatment, she'd go for it, she would meet and talk to political
authorities (the higher rank the better) till she would get what she
(used emotions whenever it was necessary) and all her 3 children
would be always present when the meeting took place. She was extremely
unbalanced and was taken for occasional psychiatric 'treatment', which
make things worse.
The only difficult thing was: accomodation. At the end of
the war that was a Big Problem for a single mother. She was told
by the Authorities that she only had one child, and she needed to have
3 children to get 2 room's flat (rented from the government).
Government needed more humans!
she HAD TO PRODUCE 3 CHILDREN just to have somewhere to live. Here is
the difference between my mother and Bob's mother, who didn't have to
produce children, that just happened and she loved them all, she was a
very kind, intelligent woman, a doctor and gifted musician, who
organized her own family band apart from other things. They also were
not poor and had their own house.
My mother (and father) never played any instrument, was short of
maternal loving instincts and
looked more like a man: the last thing she wanted was children.
There were/are so many women in Russia and not only in Russia, who
doesn't have any maternal
instincts and a desire to have children, especially One-Timers, because
they don't want to be tied up to Earth and be forced to come back here:
one life is already too much for them and their only desire to return
to their home planets particularly among positive races. They are
overwhelmed by the negativity of this planet.
My mother had no sense of humour
and immitated male abusive military style for
life, which she picked up from male bosses and her training. As Credo
Mutwa said: women are copy-cats, they'll imitate anyone! She often got
physical with us, children and we were scared of her to
death (my sister retained that incredible fear of her till she died at
50). Over the
became a very secretive person and I don't know much about her
activities, because 3 of her children (inc. me) were away from her,
most of the time in government running schools and endless medical
facilities. She never had
friends, never built a social box to
please others, had no motivation to change herself. My father and my
mother created a huge 10 year,s divorce drama and her children as a
result of it had to
be questioned in the courtroom every year as a result. It would make
reluctant to marry and have kids. And we were not the
only ones: the same has been happening to the whole country and later I
found out it was happening to the whole world! Planned, by controllers,
of children started from birth and even earlier.
Surprisingly my mother was not
or a party member. That was an easy loop for me to overcome in future.
My mother died 18 years ago. I followed her pattern in many ways:
never been religious or any political party member. Election and
military service for men were compulsory (but some managed to get away
with it). Election was considered a joke: on the ballot list I
always saw only one name for a candidate (many didn't know what to do
with this paper). The same candidate could last for quite sometime, up
to 20 years,
like : Chrutchev , Brezhnev , Gorbachev , Putin and so on. When I
watched Brejnev on TV last time, he reminded me a robot/clone reading
same speeches for so many years, creating a mass hypnosis. All of us
literary had no choice but
to vote for the guy who was chosen for us.
1) A typical scene in
Moscow's internal inclosures of multistoried apartment buildings in
Foodstores windows of the old USSR
3) Moscow in
1950's, a sale-girl; this was my first job at 16
4) Children of the former USSR
5) Foodstores windows of the old USSR ;
In my later years in Australia
I didn't trust anyone and was voting for myself and only because voting
was/is compulsory (in Russia too, only in 2 countries in the world). In
my childhood I remember myself and my sister crying most of the time,
I've seen the signs of horrific tortures on her face, feeling sorry for
her and myself. Other people were feeling sorry for us, children too
sometimes. I have a suspicion that she was not really Russian, but of
German (or even Arien) genetic make-up, because I often would be taken
for German, though I was born and raised in Moscow, but I can't prove
I also feel that artificially impregnating women of all nationalities
with Arien and Jewish genes has been done to create more obidient to
Orion Empire races, who would perform any negative task and their souls
could be either replaced or merged and influenced by negative
Later, in Australia, I
noticed that children and adults, who's been regularly abducted,
sexually and physically abused were
crying a lot, making parents even more angry with/without knowing the
real cause of these tears. What was frightening
that my mother never knew what it is to love and how to pass that
her children. My mother's favorite words were: "Enemies are
everywhere!" She was programmed not to trust and not to love anyone
inc. her children.
There were many reasons for
her violence, and one of them was Mercury amalgam (metal) teeth, which
were put in her mouth because all her natural teeth were
knocked out during the war. As a result of my chemical and biological
research in Australia I found out, that poisonous Mercury was
constantly leaking from the teeth into the brain causing violent
behaviour. The scale of this operation was unbelievable to me: most
of the people of the Soviet Union (inc. me) had Mercury amalgam teeth
or fillings in their mouths (millions and millions). Later I took
Mercury Amalgam teeth out of my mouth. I was
astonished: "How could we all still function: playing sports, work,
study, breed and so on, inspite of constant flood of biological,
electromagnetic and chemical poisons into our bodies!?
But now I know the real reason: to make a Super-race, who would be able
to travel to different worlds in different densities, starting from
3rd, in different universes with different climate/biological/chemical/
composition or of a different waveform spectrum (from ELF-extremely low
to microwave to radioactive frequencies)
As a result of my
abductions and subsequent programming I became
another Mind controlled Sex-Slave-Breeder (without me knowing it),
Abductee with Multiple Personality 'Disorder' (which I didn't know
about for 52 years).
My sister and
my brother had the same destiny with a bit of a difference: they both
became alcoholics and drug addicts (I wasn't interested in that). I
didn't know that that was my Higher Self's decision
"You yourself choosing
your parents" for me it means: my higher evolved part made this
choosing, but it is still would stay a theory to me, till I meet
consciously with one of my Higher Selves and find out.
Later I would read about the lives of princess Diana, Andy Pero,
Arizona Wilder, Cathy O'Brien, Christa Tilton, Brice Taylor and
many other females, Mind-Controlled slaves. When you have a
life you can understand better lives of others.
so happy to find such materials outside Russia and learn that I wasn't
the only one.
My father was an
engineer working for Mos-energo, Moscow
state company, which was supplying electricity for the whole Moscow. He
died many years ago. I had little contact with him. I was born with a
big area of gray hairs in the area of Crown chakra, showing that
it was damaged by some type of alien technology. Crown chakra is
helping in spiritual awakening if it's functioning, but I didn't know
about it then. With gray hair I looked much older and started dying my
hair pretty early in all kind of colors. Later I noticed how
fashionable hair dying became all over the world, esp. streaking. Gray
hair is a good indicator of how much stress the body withstood and it
showed me that the level of stress the whole humanity was in has been
increasing year by year .
As a child I was always discouraged by my handlers inc. my mother to
have any friends or
complain to someone, and every year I would inevitably end up in a new
kindergarden, a pioneer camp, an orphanage, a hospital or a boarding
school (usually in the negative premises of old churches), so I
couldn't make any friends even if I wanted to.
Why the authorities were moving me, like a gipsy, from one suburb of
Moscow to another
one every year is still a puzzle for me?
Former Soviet Union
endless military camp to me, with sterile
atmosphere, like you were living in Mintaka (Mintaka is a Home planet
in Orion Empire, where their Queen resides, read the materials on
Robert Morningsky info :
affection for each other
was non existing. Nazy type orders and hatred/indifference of all the
the norm of life at home or government institutions. Victim-victimizer
attitude was rampant, individuality was mostly supressed and nearly all
the population had to live in communities: like Collective farms,
Soviet farms, military barracks, rented communal flats and
dormitories in cities and villages run by the (Reptilian) Soviet
lived in one of those rented dormitories first few years of my life.
You either had to obey the Authorities or face
the consequences: jail
or loss of life. This way the most courageous people were weeded out.
Communist China was another alien planet (Rigelian, reptilian culture),
which I visited in 2004. And like in negative worlds upbringing of
the children was done mainly by the government. To encourage the flow
of children into the hands of aliens, you need only to worsen the
living conditions of the population which was successfully achieved in
the Soviet Union.
in winter in 1950's; as a child I was passing by these kind of houses
many times thinking: "How nice it would be to live in a house like
Considerable part of my life
as a child was spent in the
public transport or the streets of Moscow where I felt happier being
alone. And my
long lonely journeys by public transport through busy streets of
different suburbs of Moscow started. Every year , twice a week a
different route by metro, bus, trolleybus and tram would get me to
the place where
I was suppose to study, eat and sleep 5 nights a week without seeing
anyone from my family.
That made me pretty independent, not frightened of this huge city even
at night. Years later it helped me to travel in the former Soviet
Union and around the World. The only taste of Freedom I had as a child
was, when my mother would take us, children, out of Moscow for 3
months of summer holidays a few times. I had an absolute freedom to run
bearfeet and explore nature around me: country roads, fields,
forests, montains, villages, rivers, lakes and Black Sea of Ukraine
and Abhasia, near Gagra (as long as I was at home by night and brought
my sister home safe). They were the best and unforgetable days of my
childhood and I am grateful to my mother for giving me such an
opportunity! I was so impressed by seeing a sea for the first time!
The beach of Black Sea
mountain landscapes were different to Ukranian village, and rows of
cypress, grapes and magnolias instead of weeping willows and fields of
sunflowers. The people in the collective farm were different too, as
well as their language and customs. Abhasia is one of the most
beatiful, rich in plant/animal life, favourable in climate place on
Earth. It has hills, mountains, rivers, lakes and Black Sea, but not
very good roads. You could consider yourself lucky living there, but
not after the events on 8th of August 2008. But in 1957 it was
sister and I were climbing hills, learning local life and swimming
in the mouth of the mountain river Bsib and the Black Sea for the whole
summer. When I came back I wrote a composition about my adventures in
those areas for the school, which my teacher liked.
loved watching and participating
in peasant's activities of Ukranian village: helping to build their
huts, growing plants, collecting harverst grains and fruit,
fishing and swimming, taking care of the ducks, making crafts, going to
the markets, travelling in their carts buckled to yoke oxens to other
villages, cooking cherry jam in big copper pans outside on a fire and
drinking freshly drawn, still warm
early morning, singing Ukranian songs with local girls in the evening
and learning their language, watching how clay pots were made and
participating in their festivities. Four of us lived with a single
Ukranian mother, Natalka and her small son in their tiny, one room hut
in the village. There was no electricity in those areas then and no
toilets: we all had to do our toileting in a pile of manure next to the
barn for the whole summer. But I was so happy and grateful to her that
I could not forget them and years later I visited her and her son
again. It was another planet for me, much
happier one. There I started laughing and dancing with coloful locals.
But I always had a responsibility: my younger
sister, for whom I was practically a
mother and a teacher. With a mother like ours we were growing up real
fast. Later I observed that fast growing up wasn't just happening to
us, but to thousands of other children in all kind of
Children were forced to imitate soldiers - pioneers (military
discipline and a life style)!
the long tunnels
metro as a child, I observed some people overtaking
tight, endless flows of hundreds of humans, refusing to join the mass
and managed to be at the front of everyone. I liked that and followed
their example in metro and then through life: to avoid following the
sheep whenever I could. In the streets of Moscow I was watching alien
way of behavior of people around me: they either looked like motionless
robots or constantlly argueing , fighting , angry with
each other. I observed their emotions, movements, speech,
expression of the faces, the way they walked or talked to each other.
Laughter or a smile in the street was considered by the public (and by
my mother) a sign
of craziness. And that was like an infectious disease. You find it hard
not to imitate, at least partially, this alien behaviour. Later I was
reading in books and articles by foregners similar descriptions of
Russians in Moscow. I couldn't
understand why people of Moscow were so different to more natural and
harmonious humans in the Ukranian village? My dream then was to spend
my entire life in a village.
overcrowded, old public
transport system of 40's, 50's and 60's,
delibarately created bottle necks everywhere full of negative emotions,
especially in the underground train system, which were the feeding
for Low Astrals.
point I would like to make. Low Astrals are parasitic beings who are
getting the energies from humans usually without them knowing it, using
the ability to stay in another dimension, which makes them invisible.
This is a big advantage they've got, because most of the victimizing is
done this way. Remaining invisible they provoke a lot of fights, a lot
of violence and misunderstanding among humans and that is the part of
the Game. Soon you would be able to see them.
1) Moscow Metro, in early 50's there wasn't as many people there, as in
2) Moscow underground tunnels;
3) Moscow orphanage children in 50's. It looks very much like the
children of the places I spent my childhood with;
4) These children are vaccinated and I was one of similar children in
40's, 50's and 60's;
Metro in Moscow was built before WW 2 and expanded
within last 75 years into a huge underground system, connected to
Global tunneling system of underground cities and bases. I could learn
more about US underground system of tunnels, cities and facilities in
Australia in 90's, than get hold of similar maps of former Soviet
Union or Australia. This is how secretive these places still are.
the age of 14 I
was awarded a
trip to one of the best pioneer camps
in the country, again on Black Sea, for good achievements at school,
but I feel it was done for more programming (my memories are still
then I was
very proud of myself thinking that I was not that stupid after all. I
briefly befriended an unusual Albino girl (I suspect that Reptilians
were most interested in Albino females) and started having
problems in that pioneer camp too. I was constantly asking myself: "
What's wrong with me?
Why do I always get into trouble? Why do I more and more behave like
my mother? " I simply despised that idea. Now I know why: because she
and I had the same programming, the same Wernicke's commands implanted
in our brain.
Only in the last 12 years of my life in Australia I found out about
implants - microchips, DNA commands, body programming, genders'
repulsion (I had a lot of troubles with boys then and disliked them),
about aliens, about us playing a Planetary-Universal Game, how Mind
control is changing you,
how you suppose to brake those loops and become your true Spirit. I
didn't know then, that Russia was getting flooded with more and more
aliens and not just Russia.
I felt out of place and wanted to die most of the time, experienced a
lot of peer pressure dealing with
hundreds of new children every year and went into myself. But, like my
mother, never built a social box: prefered to stay the way I was
son would follow the same pattern as me and my mother). Practice of
really pushed to the limit from WW 2. I remember how we, as children,
would be lined up and had another vaccination shot or a scoop on the
every month). I was probably infected with all diseases known
to mankind, but my Higher Self was obviously looking after me if I'm
still alive. I've been watching a lot of sex between boys and girls in
mixed gender dormitories of kindergartens (10 to 20 kids of both
in each dormitory, supervised by alien activity). But whether I was
involved in sex in there or not I don't remember, most of the memory of
my life was erased (but I wouldn't be surprised if I was, I've
already overcame the body ID ).
I was at
dachas (resort) for little children (which was very unusual), most
likely for programming of 'selected' kids of military personel. Reminds
me Andy Pero's Story. Every Sunday I would
come home from a kindergarden/orphanage/internat and watch another
fit of my mother screaming how stupid and spoilt we were, wishing us
death most of the time. At that time I didn't know that death was the
thing that could've happened to me:
it was a celebration of another,
rewarding existence and going back to your true Home.
the age of 15 I
was sent to a special boarding school (year 9) for children who
lived abroad for many years with parents who served as officers in the
Army, mainly Germany. But for the last couple of years of High school
these children were sent back to the former Soviet Union to complete
education. That Internat was considered a privilege , but was next to
tallest and most powerful Ostankinskaya TV tower in Moscow (in
Ostankino). The area
of the boarding school had so much radiation from that tower, that I
could bearly move: we were guinea pigs. My
school marks went way down.
privileged children born in Moscow in 40's- 50's hospitals;
Russian pioneers in 80's on the 1st of September, the beginning of
school. This was the only day when white shirts and white aprons were
allowed. I was one of those pioneers;
Ostankino's TeleTower in Moscow, where nearby one of my boarding
schools was situated;
I had a lot of Mindcontrolling experements
done on me at that time (some of it I could remember). I was also
exposed to constant girls talks about the life in other countries and
started dreaming of escaping Russia and live in another country, where
I thought there was true Freedom and people lived good
lives. But how to get out of Russia?
It became 16 year long obsession. Living in
that country meant to me worse than death! I didn't want to cross the
like others did and instead of Western Europe to get to the opposite
direction: one of Eastern
Siberian concentration camps.
My mother started losing her grip on us and we began having fun by
mocking her actions and the angrier she was the more we, teenagers,
would laugh. She seemed to have endless hatred of all
humanity and all animals and never stopped expressing herself till she
jailed. A year later she got out of jail surprisingly looking better
than ever: younger and slimer (her body was replaced with up
date genetics or another of her Alters walked-into her body
Australia in 90's
from my materials how MPD's (Multiple
Personality Disorder) people, Mind-controlled sex-slaves-breeders,
assasins, Montauk boys/girls were created: through constant
physical and emotional trauma. Often these people would become very
creative in playing instruments, acting, painting, sculpture, singing
songs and writing books, music and poems. And now I know why. At that
time I didn't know that each year I would be spending in yet another
Parallel Earth environment of a different waveform. Different Earths
and different Moscow cities, different schools and different
children/adults, even my family there would be
their different Alters.
And all of it
was done for the same reason: to mix my energy with the energies of
everything and everyone I would run into.
After finishing school I had boring, nauseating jobs (since 16) and
studies at one of the Institutes specialising in food chemistry and
food trade. It wasn't my real choice. I had a desire to study Nuclear
Physics, but females were NOT allowed to study at that specialised
only thing I
achieving at the age of 21
was buying my own tiny flat, moving out and braking my family ties. I
was fed up with everything, determined either to find the way out of
alien country or to suicide. Life was so boring and painful for me: I
was constantly artificially impregnated and lost count of my terribly
My body was used as a machine
for production of fetuses. I probably have
hundreds of human children (or maybe hybrids). And I wasn't the only
Millions of women of USSR were constantly impregnated and aborted or
miscarriaged or had children. I,
like all other women, was blaming men for all my troubles, not knowing
the reptilian and other races governments' extensive artificial
of people have been
dreaming of being able to work and travel to different countries or
escape USSR alltogether, but
Iron Curtain was still in existence. Only deeply devoted to the system
like KGB agents
have been sent to work abroad then (scared to death talking to others
about their 'work'). Those who was able to travel abroad were
considered SPECIAL PEOPLE, they were worshiped and envied, like they
had some kind of 'power' to lift the "Iron Curtain". But later I
realised that they were not 'SPECIAL' at all,
most of them were connected to Intelligence or were non humans!
At the age of 21 I started having programmed 'synchronicities' in the
Soviet Union, which involved doing things for
years which I hated doing and generating a tremendous amount of FEAR
for Low astrals to feed off. Aliens have been studing my actions and
More and more information about life abroad was coming into the country
in 70's, but not about Global abductions. To my knowledge, there were
no UFO or abductee groups similar to USA groups organized in the Soviet
Union then (to help people to understand what was
happening to them).
Books about Soviet UFO Research were not written then and
just a very
few privately printed much later and heavily censored. Everything was
bureaucracy of the former Soviet Union was unbeatable then (like in
Europe, USA and Australia these days) .
which I found extremely boring and tiring (especially political
sciences), my mother did a good job on me by telling me the Truth and
because of being involved in double life without me knowing
it (similar to Andy Pero, Brice Taylor and Cathy O"Brien). Constant
experimentation on you makes you to lose concentration.
For years I haven't been able to look straight at the eyes of
people and my mouth was twisted from tortures in one of my Alters and
when it showed on a picture I would throw it away keeping only the good
ones. Even now I am only able
to look at one eye of a person, not both: this is not normal. Many
victims of child abuse can't do it either. I
started preparing myself for moving
abroad : finished 4 year course in English (studied German before),
learned how to drive a car, play tennis (these things were very useful
later). I had not a bad voice, was interested in music and finished 4
year musical school for adults (piano) and had an overwhelming
desire to become a jazz singer and a jazz piano player. I was
absolutely crazy about American negro jazz and now I know where it was
coming from: Robert Monroe.
All these thoughts I had then, but with time and more knowledge about
this planet and the role we are playing in the Universal and Planetary
Shifts, some of those thoughts has changed.
1) I am standing next to my car in Moscow in early seventies;
my childhood and teens pictures were destroyed by my mother and this is
my picture at 25 years of age;
and 4) My dancing partner and me on a skating ring in Moscow, before I
moved to Australia;
also a lot of experience driving a car in Moscow and other cities
of former Soviet Union all year round. The roads in the country
always in a shocking state (not like in USA or Australia). Australia
doesn't have snow and driving a car here is a piece of cake.
salaries of that time were a joke and I had to become a wheeler-dealer
real early to be able to buy a flat or a car. One of my close friends
much older than me was teaching me how. He had a great
sense of humour which made me laugh. He used to joke about me:" We
never had, don't have, never will have people like you and we
don't really need them!"
and 2) Typical Moscow
scenes in 40's, 50's, 60's, 70's, 80's, 90's and to this day (unofficial
1) 1st of September, first day of school; modern
are in white aprons with mobiles, the rest of the year the apron will
be black and the dress dark brown; millions of schoolgirls are dressed
the same way - that also didn't change for the last 70 years
2) Modern Moscow show-girls
3) and 4) Moscow at night these days
"Russia" in Moscow
that I probably would never get out of that fucking
country. Like my
mother, I've never been a smoker, drug addict or an alcoholic (that,
most likely, has been done already by someone in my cluster). I
had no real ties with my boyfriends and family, there
was never any affection
between the members of my family. Suicidal thoughts started coming
again into my head: I was bored to death! Finally I found a dealer who
was willing to smuggle
out of Russia for a lot of cash. I knew that there were people who
at the age of
28 I had to
make a tough decision: to part with everything I had: money, flat,
car and pay for this deal in advance hoping that the dealer would not
fail me. Another option was to stay in Russia till I rot. And I
decided to go for it, to risk everything for Freedom (I was so naive
I knew that I was playing with a fire: if the authorities found out, I
would've been in jail in no time. The agony of living without knowing
I would end up lasted for 2 years.
And when I just started in
the direction of learning how to become a Jazz musician, the visa to
leave the USSR finally arrived. I was smuggled out
the Soviet Union to Austria at the age of 30. That was the hardest
test for me: my Spirit won this battle and I'm sure when your
Higher Self seeing that you are serious, that you are parting with
your possesions and risking your life for Freedom - IMPOSSIBLE BECOMES
Vienna Opera House I visited
1977 , Austria,
gloomy winter, straight from the plane, finally I am
abroad alone. Complete change of life started.
I arrived to Vienna
for 3 days and looked around, puzzled (first time abroad).
"And now, what would I do
with lost citizenship, no documents (you had to refuse from USSR's
citizenship and leave your passport and birthday certificate in that
country), no job,
no language, no place to live, no car, no food and not
knowing a soul in the whole world? Is
this how 'Freedom' looks like?" I thought. "There is not much of a
between Western style of survival and Eastern one: both are hostile. I
became panic-stricken. Soviet authorities
allowed me to take out of the country only $100 and no valubles. What
can you do with $100? I seemed to find myself in constant depression.
Then 'synchronicities' started
happening in Austria.
to move to Australia, though my heart always belonged to USA
(R.Monroe's influence). Later I would have
choice of a few countries, inc. USA and inspite of overwhelming desire
to settle down in USA I was programmed to move to Australia. It was so
contradictory: later I would deeply regret that I
ended up in Ass-tralia. On my very first day in Austria I was
'accidentally' introduced to an Australian military engineer who later
became my sponsor to Australia.
I went to Italy, joint Tolstoy
foundation, which helped migrants (mainly Soviet Jews and I was not)
and to get the approval to move permanently to different countries,
especially Israel. Within a month, again 'accidently', I
an Italian military officer who quickly found me a job as a tennis
coach in one of the tennis clubs of Rome. I learnt enough of Italian
to be able to communicate. That impressed me a lot. Only later I found
that all my actions were programmed and heavily monitored, but then I
thought all the decisions were made by me. I was lucky to spent 8
months in Rome and travelled to a few lovely cities of Italy, visited
all the places of interest like Vatican city and Colosseo, many musiums
and churches. I was not religious, but curious about archetecture and
an atmosphere. Musiums and churches felt boring.
Visited famous Vatican's catacombs underground.
1) This is the picture of
John at my home in Sydney in 1982, who was my sponsor to Australia. He
passed away a few years ago;
and 4) I am with my pet Cockatoo Tishka
Whale Beach in Sydney
Tasmanian ruins of Lemuria
almost a year
of emotional torture of not knowing if I get
permission to live in Australia, the permission was granted and
I flew from Italy to Melbourne, Australia. My life had to be changed
even further : from Northern hemisphere to Southern one (means the
further North the hotter it was), driving a car on the left hand side
(not right one like in Russia), Australian language was even harder
to understand than English and the first thing I noticed how
uncomfortable the energy of Australia was for me. I thought that I'd
made a BIG MISTAKE, but it was too late to change anything. But now I
know why I was programmed to move to Ass-tralia.
(There are a few reasons and one of them was to keep me away from
meeting R.Monroe! For many years I couldn't afford to go to USA).
days spent in the family of my sponsor in Melbourne, I
decided to leave for Sydney. It was crazy: not knowing anyone, having
no money, no job, no accomodation, no car, no documents, no food,
no spoken Australian, not knowing anything about Australia and their
life, not knowing what to do next.
Sydney, 1978 .'Synchronicities' started again .
month I met some members
of Russian community from Harbin (China) in Sydney. Met also
'accidentely' my future husband George
on a tennis court miles away from the place I was renting, on another
side of the city.
'accidentely', was a Russian and could speak Russian as well as
English and 'accidentelly' happened to live next door to me and like
my father was 'accidentely' an Electrical Engineer graduating one of
Sydney uni's, Master degree ,
working for Defence. I thought what a lucky 'coincidence' to find a
on a tennis court who spoke Russian, lived next to me, within
a short period of time in
Though I always felt that we were not compatible (there was something
different in his energy), but nevertheless we
became close friends for years: playing tennis (I was teaching him
classic tennis movements), working together in
the same company for sometime, studing, building a house ourselves
(because we didn't have enough money to employ people) and being
members of Russian Community from China for a while.
Building our home. Here is another connection to R.Monroe: he was
engaged in building a lot.
Nobody before felt 'sorry'
for me (I usually got kicks, not kisses), but this guy was different:
he felt sorry for me and
I liked complaining to him about my life (misery loves
company). When he, at the age of 12, was crossing the equator in
a huge passenger ship taking him and his parents from Hong-Kong to
in the pool of that ship at 'fun' time of Neptune ceremony and was
revived later. His parents were scared
An interesting observation: as a child he loved school, created a
and did'n t have peer pressure at school!
With me it was the opposite: I hated schooling
system, didn't create a social box and had a lot of peer pressure.
There were 3 people who
developement of my character most: my mother, my ex-husband
George and my son Robert.
diploma from Russia wasn't recognized and I couldn't find a job in
that field because my English wasn't that good. Within a year I started
TV Operational techniques course (end of 70's)
with one of Sydney's colleges connected to a TV studio (I was so proud
of it). Here is the similarity with R.Monroe's involvment in Radio/TV
industry and mine. It was very easy to start the source: I didn't have
to pass exams to get to this college and to pay for this education. The
education was free for everyone in Australia and the USSR, but in the
USSR you needed to pass diffficult exams if you don't belong to a
special group of 'Chosen' people.
1), 2) and 4) This is TV Studio of North Sydney Technical College, the
teachers, me and other students in early 80's;
3) The old building of Australian Film and Television School, where I
used to work;
I found my husband's help great. He and invisible R.Monroe
enough to explain to me complex technical subjects in Russian and in
English, that I would understand and at the exams with invisible help
from R.Monroe I would go and
my exams quite successfully (though I didn't know it
The same invisible help from Bob I had with my English-Russian
translations and just writing and understanding English for many years
up to the point that my English now is better than my Russian. My
impressed by my achievements and I was impressed by his knowledge of
everything (except subjects concerning consciousness). I liked
his soul. I remember in the USSR we all
were taught TO WORSHIP THE INTELECT, NOT THE SOUL (Orion
motto)! What was also very attractive in him, that he worshiped
females and behaved like a woman sometimes: his calm and soft feminine
his total unselfishness,
his intellegence and eagerness to
everyone around him in everyday life, at work , at home and on a
tennis court made him very popular at work and on a tennis court,
especially among females. For the
first time, I
thought, I found 'the one' who was truly caring for
me. His feature to do 'everything' for me
and our son Robert slowly made both of us so dependent on him, not
capable to look after ourselves, spoiling both of us. He and Robert,
sometimes, had been mistaken for females and I
couldn't understand how could such a fragile person do hard physical
jobs together with me for
I read in R.Monroe books about the School for Super-Humans,
School for Compressed Learning we all attending in our sleep on higher
level of consciousness. Bob was
told that there were no Repeaters sent back to Earth to repeat one more
life, like before. All new humans (those who were willing to have at
least one experience on Earth before the Planetary Game is over) were
One-Timers. There are millions of One-Timers of both polarities on
right now. My husband seemed to be a One-Timer of a positive polarity.
The idea is not
to stay 100% positive as a result of this Game, but
balanced, to learn to manipulate all kinds of energies in 3rd density:
positive, negative, feminine, masculine etc. and go through
More about Balance is written on Home Page and George Green info, R.
Monroe also talks a lot about this subject on video on Youtube
(#5) (with written content) on Home Page.
my programming was working like a swiss clock: everything what average
females do, I was doing too.
The longer we lived with each other the
more uphappy we were (no wonder : male vrs female, my
husbands hearing aid, a very negative place we lived in and on top of
that unlimited variety
of Mind-Controlling techniques. After I worked things out, it was
easy to see the same 'partnership' arrangement in many other families.
He was a workacholic, but never had an
initiative to become independent (still in group consciousness). I, on
the contrary, felt always
unhappy to work for someone and it was my idea to have our own buisness
in Electronics, which he finally organized inspite of hearing
problem. I always felt sorry for him (he was born without one ear and
that taught me to be patient), I
thought he needed me and considered my duty to defend George wherever I
could. Usually it is the opposite: male is expected to protect his wife.
Many, even young, people these days are wearing hearing aids which are
to Mind-control those who are wearing them
and those who are next to those people. Hearing aids are as dangerous
as mobile phones: too close to the
brain. We never had a mobile phone: I was against, but I couldn't do
anything about the hearing aid (constant listening device for CIA
agents as well). I discovered this fact after year 2000: I had a
exposure to my husband's diabolic, electronic hearing aid, which made
so mind manipulated, so obsessed with material things
for years, kept me firmly in the Game, spiritually asleep, hypnotised.
I wish I had such an obsession for reading and gaining Knowledge then!
But nevertheless we
each other many things.
was working in TV industry for a while till I became very sick,
totally incapable to work in electro-magnetically poluted
enviroment (on top of my constant abductions, impregnations, performing
something on other Time-Lines and strange energy of Australia). I
couldn't understand why some men, who worked with me, were attacking me
the time, making me feel inferior (male domination again). That is
happening a lot in TV industry.
After my research and personal observations (in 2004)
I came to conclusion : TV Studios and their branches (like Australian
Film and TV School) and their programs were either boring or negative.
The reason became clear much later: the whole idea of TV is alien and
designed for aliens, all
kind of technology is their energy. Real humans, especially women, feel
sick after a systematic exposure to alien technology. The movie "They
Live" only supported my
observations. There were a lot of ET's and Illuminati members working
in TV industry then (and now) and what American Illuminati were doing
Australian Illuminati were doing in Australia.
My mother liked travelling
former Soviet Union as a volunteer,
lecturing young soldiers about her experiences in WW 2 in Russian
zones (between mental institutions) and I couldn't understand what
kind of deal she had with the military? She used to show to everyone
newspaper articles written by controlled media about her participation
in WW 2. She was still very strong and independent, even managed to
come to Australia alone, on crutches, to see me and my family at the
age of 70 (in 90's). She could stay for 3 month, but left Australia in
a couple of weeks, not being able to withstand the
energy of my household and Australia in general: that made her so
nervous. A few other Russian
females noticed the same peculiar and
unpleasant effect, esp. in the hotter regions of Australia's
I also loved travelling and after completing my studies I finally
visited USA, most of Western Europe and Singapore. While travelling
California, Nevada, New Mexico and Arizona I was abducted again,
my body was implanted with new microchips and a more powerful command
to breed. I was getting old and was hesitating to have a child.
The idea to have a
child was my
husband's idea, not mine. After 7
years of being with him I was so well 'domisticated' and surprised at
the (programmed) 'desire' to have 2 children (but luckily I ended with
one), that I didn't resist anymore. Then later, as a result of my
research, I found out that it could've been the decision of one of my
Higher Selves. Later my views would change,
because having a child would change me
Because I had no idea how to
give a birth to a child I started my research into the subject.
Excellent books on medical fraud especially in USA started opening my
spiritual eyes. After realising how much damage have been done to all
of us by medical proffession I decided to become my own doctor, which
requested a lot of reading of literature on conventional and
alternative medicine and experimentation on myself: through trial and
error that is.
I tried everything. We built a floatation tank at home and used it for
relaxation, using ozone and hydrogen peroxide
for bodies and water, getting liver stones out using Hulda Clark's
herbs and a zapper, her generator for killing all sorts of
urine therapy, years later Colour therapy. Later in life I became so
parasites that I was afraid to have any pet at home though little
asked me many times (now I do have 2 dogs and 2 cats).
I've read about floride
compounds in our tap water (which makes you docile and plain stupid)
and changed to reverse osmosis filtering and ozonating water, which
became a big help in my awakening. I didn't know about these things in
Russia and about me drinking Moscow water full of chlorine and floride,
which made me not very bright. After reading R.Monroe books
in 1996 I asked my husband to build a Check-Unit (like at TMI) in our
home and met a
silent resistence. He was never interested in Monroe or other
Alternative writers. He wasn't greedy like the members of my Russian
family, but would give
me a scandal when I wanted to buy an alternative book from USA. Apart
from technical, bookeeping, tax, some alternative medical and junk
literature, he never read any alternative materials. But after many
years of me trying to change the situation and make him and my teenage
son to read what I was reading, I gave up. It was easier to make an
elephant to read. There is a saying: never let a woman to change a man.
But I would say: never let a human female to change an alien man into a
human - she would fail. Though years later he changed and started
reading what I was giving him to read (usually an eyeopener).
1984 I found an unusual method of giving birth: underwater birth,
which originated in Russia, but was practiced by Andromedan races for
females are using
the underwater method in
giving a birth and if they are from 4-5 Density it looks like there is
water there too, but not as dense.
a book and a video
about a Russian
guy, a pioneer in this field, who was specializing in underwater
deliveries, given to me by an
Australian Orionized female. His name was Igor Charkovsky.
I decided to go for it. Nothing is
accidental, looks like I was
driven to underwater birth by the Mind-Controllers. There is something
this method which is very appealing to aliens, both negative and
positive and that something is Timetravel. Ocean has been used a lot in
Montauk Timetravel experiments, Cathy O'Brien and Brice Taylor were
describing their involvement in ocean experiments done on them (read
both their stories on the links devoted to both of them and
on this website). And I feel what happened to them, happened
also to me, though I can't prove it.
Much later, after many years of my own research and practice,
I came to conclusion that everything is governed from much higher
levels with the same result: to help the evolution of species, both
hegative and positive. And often negative energy is allowed to be used
as long as it helps the same cause: Evolution of Universal proportions
(though it feels very cruel from 3rd Desity point of view).
was surprising for me: how males-doctors all over the Globe managed to
and even in this, purely female's buisness of delivering a baby, males
are the ones whom blind-folded human females will follow?"
Females blindly follow male - leaders everywhere especially religious
leaders. It was surprising that Igor Charkovsky
(a male) was the leader of underwater delivery method in
Russia and not a female-leader (there is a photogallery of his work on
our website, see Dolphin-Human
stage as a sailor he drowned and was revived by dolphins after spending
He seemed to ignite many pregnant
mothers with this methods in major cities of Soviet Union inspite of
heavy opposition from the Authorities. Documentary films in some
Europian countries as well as Russia were made about him and his
methods. He found that
underwater birth, esp. in the sea and with dolphins as midwives was
working in particularly hard cases of delivery and with
disabled children. But I tend to look at it from a different point of
view now. Knowingly or unknowingly he was participating in Time
experiments. He spent a lot of years on reseaching and practicing his
methods with public without any financial rewards. I see it as
technique, to create more Alters. Expansion of us never happens without
experiencing unbelievable pain.
When you live with aliens you eventually see the difference inspite of
heavy, various, painful and constant Mind-Controlling techniques used
Over the years I noticed a lot of aliens among disabled people and saw
the connection between recent move of Australian Councils to spend
thousands on building all kinds of free facilities inc. toilets for
disabled and drastic increase of aliens (One-Timers) among humans. 15
there was no such a thing like a disabled toilet. Governments didn't
give a shit about disabled humans (in Russia the situation is
And now a phenomenal change, for instance: most of the parking
spots in the city are not for healthy people, but for the disabled
(which are constantly used by healthy ET's) and the number of these
parking spaces increasing by the day. You would have a feeling that
soon all of us will become wheelchaired.
change in Local Councils have been taking place over
the years: majority of the councilors these days are not human. There
are some thoughts about handicaped people from Dolores Cannon's
"Convoluted Universe", book 2, p. 211:
understand how they considered such an injury would make it easier for
him to go through this lifetime.
A (Aaron): It was a
handicap that we
felt would be the best for him as, you might say, a camouflage aspect
to allow him to function in certain areas without attracting too much
attention. It instituted and allowed to enter an instability in his
emotional self, which plays on him at times. And therefore, allows him
not to stand out so directly.
D (Dolores): Do you
mean having some kind of handicap makes him appear more normal, more
A: Yes, basically more
I've noticed groups of disabled aliens in wheelchairs taken by the
carers to the shopping centres of
Sydney and other major cities of Australia. I've
seen aliens taken as humans in
major international airports as all kinds of personel, inc. flight
attendants and passingers in and out of wheelchairs, I've seen
them as children in Canadian long distance trains and among
international exchange students. I've seen them at local markets
trading some goods or supervising the building of 5 stories houses.
is interesting fact: roughly 95% of Australian buildings are one/two
story buildings/houses. Higher buildings are only allowed in certain
parts of Australia like city centers of State capitals or Gold Coast in
Queensland. I was wondering: what could be under the surface that would
not withstand a higher than 5
story building? The only thing I can think of was tunnels, mines or
Russian leader in waterbirth started from returning his own
daughter to life by keeping the
premature baby mostly in water. For some reason he never wanted to
to her, she was over 20 then. He and she, probably, were tired of
publicity. He couldn't understand why journalists
were calling him a doctor if he wasn't.
Russian women in Moscow were delivering and training their babies in
bath tubs in their flats under his supervision. According to him,
deliveries were painless and very beneficial for
and a baby. Beneficial was also subsequent baby and mother/father
training: swimming or at least submerging
themselves in icy water (similar to
what Andy Pero was doing). I knew from living in Russia that the method
of adaptation to icy water was not new in this country and has been
used among soldiers in USSR to make them more resistant to cold
temperatures and diseases.
Through the book and the documentary on
Russian methods of waterbirth, which served me as a manual, I was
totally convinced (read: mind manipulated), that that was 'the
only way' for me. On the drawing below you will find a baby-girl
sleeping in water, who was trained by Igor Charkovsky. I followed the
same method to train my son in winter in Moscow (from hot Australia) to
do the same. There are more pictures
of Russian people adapting to colder climate, starting from babyhood,
and baby/mother underwater training can be found below. There are more
pictures on the link: Dolphin-Human
1) and 2) pictures of a baby girl
sleeping in the water;
3) winter acclimatisation among professionals/intellectuals in the
countryside starting from babyhood;
4) Igor Charkovsky is coaching a mother and her baby at Black Sea;
5) and 6) watertraining of mothers and their children by Igor Charkovsky (25 years
7) a young
mother, a sportswoman, is training her three children acrobatics and
this picture is showing Robert Monroe's father Robert Emmett with his
toddler son Robert Allen Monroe holding 2 chairs in 1916 ( from
biography by Mayard Stockton).
modern examples of Waterbirth on Youtube
20 minutes before
Luis Alejandro's Waterbirth (Parto en Agua)
Waterbirth: Mom catches own baby
Birth waterbirth A Baby Story
Australia things were different. We lived in Sydney and it was hard
to find a midwife in Sydney, who would help me to deliver.
Everyone was afraid to lose their jobs. Majority of mothers-to-be were
delivering in hospitals and didn't want to go against the official
policy of AMA (Australian Medical Association). Since the moment I got
pregnant the things got worse: I was pregnant with hybrid child and you
need to experience it to know the feeling, but I didn't know it then.
It was such a torture, the
energy of the fetus was incompatible with mine. I thought I was going
to die. I started thinking about abortion. My ability to
think independently disappeared. My mind control was ovewhelmed with
pain, that I was
easily persuaded by my
husband and by a Jewish 'doctor' Geffrey Edelsten, (who owned
one of the Sydney's Swan,
Team at that time), to allow unthinkable things to be done
to me and to the unborn fetus (Robert). Another lot of experiments on
me and the
fetus started: from
vaccinations to ultrasound machines.
The whole medical practice in Australia/USA became
a huge, alien operated industry, done by money/power hungry,
manipulated/manipulating 'doctors'. I had experience with a few
Reptilian 'doctors' in Sydney hospitals,
who reminded me soleless electronic machines/computers. You would not
later I was watching hundreds of females
subjected to horrific Ultrasound machines, Cat Scanners and other
(this is not the same as natural ultrasound used by dolphins to
with each other or find food). Reading about these
machines' negative effects on human body opened my eyes. The irony of
the whole thing was that
one of my first jobs in Sydney was an electronic company specialising
in production of ultrasound machines and testing them in 1979, where I
got so sick from exposure to them. I
didn't know then that these machines were creating holes in our mental,
emotional and etheric bodies. That I learned much later while
researching the subject.
reason I describe what happened to me is to give the readers the idea
of what is happening to blind-folded human females at Endgame
Some females might recognize it and for some males it could be an eye
Russian writers wrote some books and made a movie and a TV series named
"Human - Amphibian" and I've read some materials about Mermaids and
Mermen who constantly were encounted by fishermen in tropical regions.
I was always wondering how do those half human-half fish creatures
sleep in water and if they need sleep at all?
Through the centuries sailors of all countries were attracted by the
sounds of music and singing of Mermaids and were losing their lives as
humans, most likely to reappear as Mermen (after being genetically
modified in underwater facilities).
These half fish-half human were
trained to live in seas and oceans. But the most interest of the Orion
Empire is in genetic combination of the smartest and the most
creative creatures of Earth: a human and a dolphin
I felt that I was
connected to this somehow. Years later I read about all kind of
Reptillian water human-monsters encountered all over the Globe and
wanted to know more about Reptilian, Sirian, Andromedan, Earth human
and dolphin connection to
underwater birth and training, but couldn't find any materials on that.
A lot of this info is heavily suppressed. The only thing I know now
for sure that many human souls are replaced by alien souls in
the water at the moment of drowning, which is often staged. I
knew a few Russian people in Australia, who drowned, then, in roughly
30 min. were found and revived with a total change of personal energy,
One of them was a young and talanted computer - programmer, who came to
Australia to work and after a year of working with the company as
computer-programmer he drowned. After being rescued, he became
a collector of shopping trolleys, because he
couldn't remember what he was doing before. Later on, in 1996, I was
researching Alex Collier's materials and found out that Andromedan (
Zenetian ) women give birth underwater, at 8 months. Why underwater?
Do some of the Andromedan races live in water like
females/males-amphibians do? Is it somehow connected to whales and
I look at the whole thing now I feel that I was manuvered between two
factions 100% Negatives and 100% Positives, who have been interested to
create their version of Superwoman-Superman for the use by their races
and had humans involved
into helping them to achieve it. The only difference was in how that's
been done. Negatives have been doing it by force, cruelty, mindconrol,
mass hypnosis, technology and deceit. Positive
aliens have been asking humans to help, but sometimes avoiding to say
the Truth. I was always wondering if positive races
have their own genetic laboratories. I guess they have and if they do
what would they be like compare to the underground Hell of genetic
laboratories of Negatives? That's how the Evolution of the species is
done anyway. I wanted to know what is Andromedan connection to
dolphins? And years later, after researching R.Monroe materials I found
out that Monroe Institute organized a Dolphin club or workshop. I don't
know much about it, but I, personally had some experience of swimming
with captive dolphins in Porpoise Pool in Coffs Habour and seeing them
in many other parts of Australia. Years later all 3 of us, finally, got
to Monkey Mia in Western Australia to meet their famous wild dolphins.
But all these places became highly commercialised and artificial. The
novelty and spontaneity has
been lost: you were not allowed to come and pet approaching dolphins by
the security guard. It seems to me now that when Negatives want people
or to settle in one particular place, they would stage for some guy to
find a golden nugget (to start mining operations) or to stage a
religious 'miracle' (to start a religious community) or attract wild
life (inc. dolphins) to that place (to have a constant flow of
Three years ago my husband, my som and me went on whalewatching cruise
in Hervey Bay, Queensland, not far from us. That was our first time. I
always wanted to see wild whales. But I didn't expect the extent/scope
of what happened. As soon as we found humpback whales they
us an unforgetable performance. About 5/6 of them were rocking the boat
with tourists, running around with photo and video cameras (we videod
which made the tour operator and the captain pretty scared. The whales
were diving under the boat and coming out on the other side of it so
close that you could almost touch them. They were jumping out of the
water like they've been trained in San Diego seaworld, generating a lot
of energy and excitement. They made my day. Later the tour operator
admitted that he never saw the wild whales to be SO energetic, there
were times that they couldn't find wild whales at all (just dolphins)
and he warned everyone about it beforehand. And I felt that there was a
connection between that outstanding performance of whales and Robert:
they were greeting us and esp. him! I also feel that a lot of
experiments have been done to Robert behind my back and some of them
were connected to dolphins and whales.
All 4 photos are taken of me and Robert in Coffs Habour's Porpoise
Pool, Queensland, Australia, in 1986 and that was fun for me.
I learned as a result of the TV programs, where I would be involved
that negative and
positive aliens are interested in us to develop faster, they don't have
time to wait for years for us to become adults (and it's not much time
left anyway). So whatever human
adults were doing before, now children are doing, like we have millions
of children soldiers/pilots/saylors, spys, prostitutes, models, slaves
private houses and factories of Africa, India, China, Russia, South,
Americas and other places above and underground. Children-workers
involved in all kinds of industries,
including computers, in the underground facilities, in orphanages and
The children have been sold as slaves to different planets and star
systems. This is a part of the Intergalactic Human Slave Trade. And, of
course, those who are selling children need a first class merchandise.
Cathy O'Brien, Brice Taylor and Andy Pero have been describing what
they had to go through as children and as the adults and about children
slave trade. The same their
children had to go through: having sex with men/women, animals
(incl. dolphins) and
aliens of all kinds, forced to distribute drugs and illegal money,
participate in pornography and as secretaries for political leaders,
who used them as human computers and then to demonstrate their
abilities to the potential buyers, and as soldiers/killers/spys and as
pilots of different types of UFO's. And, as always, children are
constantly beaten up into submission. My son and I had to go through
some of this stuff too. There was also a lot of water activities of
most mind-controlled slaves, to prepare them to use water on other
planets if needed.
I feel appropriate to place here some extract from "Thanks for the
Memories" by Brice Taylor:
Reagan's administrations the doctors at UCLA did tests and
demonstrations in front of other doctors explaining how I worked, but
they called this "studies"
of the mind or brain. They didn't refer to any of it as mind control,
but instead gave it the catchy name
"behavior modification." They had a circular arena where they conducted
the demonstrations while I laid
on a table or sat in a chair naked, responding like a puppet to their
cues. The demonstrations involved
simple mind control techniques as well as telekinesis. Once the doctor
directed me to bend a spoon across
the room with the power of my mind. They told me to see the spoon bend
in my mind and to focus solely
on this thought to see it, and hear the words that played in my mind;
then the spoon would bend and
sometimes it would even move and fall off a table from across the room.
Once I was programmed to
hold out my hand with a key in it and with my mind I bent the key. I
curled it all up while I held my
palm and fingers still, my mind totally focused on the key. Most people
have no idea the power a focused mind
has. The doctors watching would gasp. They also programmed me to start
a fire from across the room with
my mind. Large grants were given to doctors who wanted to do further
into the power of the mind or the mind/body connection, or studies of
the brain. During one
such demonstration, a group of doctors witnessed the presenting doctor
give me the hypnotic suggestion
that I would not be burned. He held a lighted match to my arm, and just
as he said, I didn't get
burned. One particular doctor filed by at
the end of the demonstration to get a closer look at my arm to see if,
indeed, I was not burned. After viewing my unburned arm, tears welled
in his eyes, and in Catholic
fashion he performed the sign of the cross on himself and said,
"Forgive us," and walked away. Over the years, most scientists and
doctors didn't respond as this
sympathetic, compassionate, scientific human being did. I believe that
many were uninformed as to
the level of the mind control
experiments and usages, and did not know exactly how the mind control
was accomplished. But my controllers were well aware of these
technologies and used them to have
me appear as "supernatural" to people they wanted to influence. They
could pre-program in these
manifestations and have them occur seemingly spontaneously without
outside interference. This was how they
rigged so-called miracles for the Pope and other Catholic leaders at
the Vatican. They programmed in
'miracles' like making my hands bleed at the palms like Christ did or
making me speak in high Latin
tongue to the Pope or Bishops, delivering messages that dropped them to
their knees, kissing their
rosaries or necklaces or my feet. I didn't know what they were saying
to me because I didn't really know
Latin. They, like many others, were open to these miracles delivered to
them on what they thought were the
'wings of angels' (me) to
influence them. They thought I was some oracle delivering God's
messages or angelic messages. I even delivered messages to Reagan with
a religious theme, but it only worked
on those who were religious.
I went between UCLA and Point Mugu Naval Base often for this
technology. Point Mugu had large banks of audio equipment, dolphin
tanks, and a pool, and UCLA had
brain-testing equipment, MRI, and virtual reality gear..."
It is hard to imagine that all
the cruelty we are going through is done to us with the permission of
our Total Selves.
I know that we need to spread the
seeds of Balance, but is that the right way to spread it?
got first hand experience as a parent: what it's like to be a parent
at Endgame Time, how parents are bullied by the governments, through
their workers; how parents lose their right to teach their children,
the way they want it; how often children are taken from the parents
by force or parents are jailed leaving the child in the hands of
Governments authorities. How many children gone missing: they've been either
of sold into prostitution and other forms of slavery. And on, and on. A
very long list of horrible
things I've learned after I gave a birth to my child and I've learned
it the hard way.
know the real reason why all these things have been happening, but now
I know: to mix thoroughly the different energies of different people
with different energies of different ET's and then with different
energies of Earth in Original and Parallel Universes and then to mix
these energies with different Universal energies for the Earth
Planetary and Universal Shifts, and for the Creation of a New
In 1984 I had a home
delivery in a small aboveground pool without any drugs or
intrusion into my physical body (I was against them) and nearly died of
pain (you have
a feeling that all your guts were taken out one by one while you are
still alive). But even then I didn't fly out of my
body to watch myself giving birth: I wasn't unconscious. Those who
impregnated me wanted me to experience the maximum of pain without
being able to recover while having an astral flight. The water was too
didn't help. Nothing would help if you have a hybrid child inside of
you. I was an experimental subject without me being aware of it. I
delivered a child, but there was no joy in it whatsoever it was
nothing, but excruciating pain, but with time that would change. I
doubt that westernised woman, who has
chosen a natural birth (without any medication and any intrusion)
straight after giving birth would smile and become overwhelmed with
radiant love towards her newborn baby (like in a movie). The
process of being pregnant and
giving birth underwater is extremely traumatic for any female. It was
also traumatic to three of us: me, my
and my son.
remember Princess Diana was saying the same thing about her giving
birth to her children-hybrids, she called herself a breeding
machine, that she was used for production of her children. And she was
horrified by the
Mind manipulation continued into me promoting waterbirth on Australian
TV and then condemned by them for trying to jail a child
molester. I lost the ability to think with my heart. I was making mistakes left
I felt that I was constantly manuvered, forced, that decisions I was
making were not my decisions, but someone else's. I couldn't get out of
that alien trap. That wasn't how I imagined having a child.
become obsessed with my and Robert's watertraining and sleeping in
water, which was achieved by Igor Charkovsky. And
eventually I achieved it too: my son could sleep in
water. The whole experience gave an excitement of achievement, but not
without another emotional trauma for both of us. This sleeping in water
technique is not really new. It's been achieved in/out of genetic
laboratories underground thousands years ago. Only negatives want it to
happen under their strict supervision (like with breeding). But there
is a big difference between human mother's training andReptilian
pictures below you can find me and my son in training. But now he is
not like he used to be.
I got myself involved into the program
on Australian TV, called "Superbabies", which I deeply regret now. It was a huge mistake.
I had no clue what was really behind of all that (reminds
Pero's involuntary participation in project "Superman", see his Story
on our site Andy Pero
info link, please).
My intent was to help humanity to achieve
its highest potential, but without using all kind of cruelty (the way
negative races have been operating behind our backs). In my opinion the
"Olympic Games" had the same goal: to give the humanity
an opportunity to achieve the best results. Now I know that it's not
What I've learned from my experience, that you still can be used
by NWO without you having any idea that you are somehow participating
in their plans: NWO is using your Alters (created by NWO to
perform their schemes). So, like millions of others I was following the
same road. I was reading
and hearing that children, if they start early, were capable to achieve
a lot and in much shorter time. So I was teaching my son methods
described in the books real early, inspite of the troubles me and him
have been going
through. I wanted him to achieve a lot (like other parents).
There is some connection between "Superbabies" TV program and the
School for Superhumans, Human+,
the School for Compressed Learning on 4th density Robert Monroe
described in "Far Journeys". This is where there is another tie between
me and Bob Monroe's carreer in the Entertainment industry.
Like most of the parents we like to give our children what we didn't
have in our childhood. I did the same with my son and tried to give him
'an early start' after reading some available alternative literature
on how to raise children and my goals were: to teach Robert to
walk, swim, play tennis and piano, singing, gymnastics, dancing,
rollerskate, iceskate, read and write at the
age of 2. But I didn't achieve much. Little did I know that he was a
hybrid and he was constantly
abducted and experemented on like me, my sister, my brother and my
mother. The child was raped a few times as a
baby and all my efforts to defend him were constantly broken, the
controllers would always find the way how to do it, so many
are helping them and the same is happening to so many children. My
husband and I were trying to sue the child
molestor, but we lost the case and it does't surprise me now, after
reading so much literature about raping of the whole humanity for so
many years on everyday basis.
program was out of the ordinary, causing a big controvesy, Reptilians
didn't really want us to show what our children can do trained by their
parents, not macho-men or Reptilians/Sirians/Grays themselves.
everything to be a secret, especially what is going on in underground
genetic laboratories or secret children 'development' programs and what
these children-robots are used for later on.
I lived in Australia for about 10 years, feeling homesick, like many
Russians abroad, and decided to visit USSR in 1987 and take little 2
year old Robert with me (before "Perestroika"). Genetically, I know
that I am not really a Russian, but German and my father is not my
biological father. Most impregnations are performed by the Controllers
with the use of Sperm banks, which existed for thousands of years and
have been used by representetives of the underground civilizations of
Earth. Drunvalo Melchizedek doesn't even hide it anymore and mentioning
the existence of these civilizations on his videos.
also didn't hide how much he was physically abused, when he was in a
Me and Robert flew to Moscow in winter to meet the leader of waterbirth
and water training movement. I met him and immediately 'fell in love'
with him, because he seemed to
have a charming personality, besides I was very well 'prepared' by the
intelligence without being aware of it. Now I know that it was an
created 'love'. Every male leader has to have a charisma to be able to
attract more females-followers in every field (see Eve Lorgen info
link on our website for more information on how we often are mind
manipulated 'to fall in love' with someone). But he is a nice guy and
not after power/fame or money.
But I was under such a heavy mind manipulation, that I was making
one stupid mistake after another. Over the years
I found that what I
thought were my thoughts, were not my thoughts at all: these commands
inserted into my brain and they (the same commands) are repeating in
other humans. Later my son
had the same negative thoughts inserted into his brain and we both had
to fight them. Some of this kind of thoughts are called Wernicke's
commands (you can find more info on that see "The Mars Records", S&M.Relfe
link on our site).
The leader invited
us to swim in the frozen lake of Moscow's Central (Gorki) Park, where a
of Russian enthusiasts called "Seals" had been swimming in winter
Sunday and not just men, but occasionally young females with their
babies too (see the picture above of the leader and Robert, my son).
They were the main supporters of the leader's activities.
Me and other 2 females from USA plunged ourselves into the icy water (I
have videos of all this
kind of water activities).
I was shocked, my heart stopped beating from fear and cold, I was sure
that was the end of me. I could only manage to stay in the water for a
minutes. The leader was standing in the water posing for the cameras,
submerging Robert and other screaming babies into the water. That was
tough for both of us, being accustomed to the heat of Australia (most
of Australia doesn't have snow).
Something incredible happened in a couple of hours, when we warmed
ourselves up! The hundred times
enhanced , overwhelming feeling of happiness and wellbeing !!! I was
dancing with the crowd of Russians in somebody's flat!
For the first
time in my life I've learned what it was like to swim in icy water: you
only can feel truly happy after experiencing an enormous misery!
I've posted here a few examples of a very popular these days
ice-swimming videos in different countries and more videos on Youtube
are on our link My
Thoughts, My Insights and an article in a newspaper:
Lagoon Polar Bear Club 2009
New Year 2009 - Chico, CA Polar Bear Swim
Chico Polar Bear 2009
Russians ice-swimmers amaze public
Крещение без морозов
Swimming To An Iceberg
Winter Swimming in Russia, Moscow, Strogino
Ice Swimming With
'Walruses' in Russia
Reporter's Notebook: What It's Like to Swim in Subzero Temperatures
By CLARISSA WARD, MOSCOW
to Russia, where temperatures regularly plunge below freezing for four
months of the year. To survive the cold here most people bundle up, but
a select few strip down. They call themselves "morzhi," or walruses,
and their passion is swimming … in subzero temperatures. At
least every week, and as often as every day, these enthusiasts plunge
into the icy depths of frozen lakes and rivers.
Morzhi claim that there are enormous health benefits to ice swimming.
They say it improves circulation, helps with arthritis and rheumatism
pains and rids the system of toxins. They also claim it can cure the
heaviest of hangovers. For the most part, morzhi are very health
conscious. Most don't drink or smoke and in some cases even have rules
that forbid people from drinking before dunking.
"It gives you vital energy and strength," a devotee called Sasha told
me on a chilly morning on the Moscow River. She was wearing nothing but
a wet swimsuit as we chatted and I asked her whether she was cold. "I
am warm, I am warm," she insisted. I told Sasha that I was planning to
try dipping my toe in to see what it was all about. "The first time is
horrific, but then it's normal," she assured me.
It was with some trepidation that I had decided to find out for myself
whether these morzhi are enlightened or crazy. I bought a short-sleeve
wetsuit, partially so as not to frighten people with the sight of my
white flesh after a Moscow winter, and partially because I was
concerned that my internal organs might shut down upon contact with the
water. I had spent the week reading horror stories on the Internet
about hypothermic shock and panic attacks and the sensation of not
being able to breathe properly.
Watching the men and women, old and young, fat and thin, jog, casually
into the water and splash around gaily, I suddenly felt rather foolish
for my fears. It looked almost fun. I walked into the water
purposefully and waded forward. At first it felt like little needles
pricking my legs. Then, as the water got higher, I felt something like
dizziness. I realized that I was making slightly strange whooping
noises and that I was by now almost skipping through the water just to
keep moving. By the time the water was just above my navel I decided
that I had experienced enough of the icy waters for my first experience
and I rapidly retreated to the changing room."
ice-swimming of Russian women and their babies
2006 I would read about incredible, but tough things Andy Pero was
after being exposed to alien experiments: one of them was to stay in
icy cold water of the pool for hours which still didn't affect him,
but a few minutes of the same water nealy killed an alien when he
accidentely fell into the water (Andy Pero got him out of water). After
reading Andy Pero's life story " Superman " in 2006 I connected
the dots: it was so much similarity to the things which I had to
experience. When I was reading those pages my body strongly reacted:
I had hot flashes, my body was sweating, boiling with emotions. These
are the signs that it happened to you and there are many who went
through the same treatment with the approval of their own
Selves. It seems like you can't even trust your own Total Self. This is
the reason why many humans don't even know that they have a higher
evolved part: Total Self (TS). Otherwise they would give a huge scandal
TS, but they wouldn't do the same to their God (of alien origin). Only
when we lose our physical bodies (no more pain), everything would
become clear to us.
But in 1986 I wasn't that
in Universal Knowledge and I wanted to see how trained children could
and do other unbelievable things the leader was training them to do. I
beLIEved that after such training
drowning and fear of water would never be a problem! I found it
fascinating that we, humans, were capable of achieving so much! I was
wearing pink glasses (saw everything in a positive light). Now I see
the connections between indian yogies/gurus, C.Castaneda sorcerers,
martial arts leaders, Russian underwater training, remote viewers,
Montauk boys/girls, Olympic teams trainings, the programs which Cathy
O'Brien, Andy Pero, Michael Relfe, Brice Taylor and millions of others
have been forced or persuaded to go through. All of this leads to the
same point: to create superwoman/superman, to create a better
slave/soldier for negative as well as positive sides to fight
But after years of research and getting more balanced, my thoughts
would considerably change.
Russians are really getting ready for the Global Cooling. Below you can
find this year (2009) winter swimming of Russians in 19-20 January on
купания в проруби в Чебоксарах, Россия, 19
зимние купания в проруби 19
Winter swimming in19 January, 2009 (купание в проруби в Бездонном озере
в Серебряном Бору
Mass 'christening' in icy water in one of Moscow lakes, 20
января 2009 (купание в проруби)
Old Russian peasant
Russian Winter Holiday
Charkovsky couldn't show me anyone who could sleep underwater and it
wasn't shown in
his documentary. He started training Robert to sleep underwater and
acrobatics after I asked him, though he found Robert too old for this
kind of training (he was not 3 years of age yet). I did't quite like
reminded me hospital techniques, the people who has their broken limbs
(arms, legs, necks) in all kinds of wooden frames to 'help' them to
'heal' faster. But the results were outstanding! Robert's
wasn't finished: he still could not sleep underwater. It was time for
go home to Australia. Igor instructed me to continue
watertraining/acrobatics in Australia. When I
came back I tried to train myself to sleep underwater in the floatation
tank and a spa, but failed because I thought I was too old. I was
always scared that Robert might drown
from this kind of training , but remembered how Russian females were
training their babies without fear.
And again all depends on what kind of spin you make on everything
you do; what kind of intent is behind of your activities.
Everything: positive or negative, except Balance, can be used by
Negatives for their benefit. The Controllers know how to develop
further a positive discovery, made by humans and then turn around and
use it against human evolution!
I was learning new things together with Robert and trained him and
stay underwater for long periods of
time. Finally the result was achieved: Robert could sleep in water.
Sleeping in water is the same as swimming Free style only a baby is
floating on the tummy and moving just the head (and nothing else) in
and out of water for breath in a sleeping state. I couldn't believe my
eyes when I saw it and videorecorded Robert's sleeping in our spa.
That only happened a couple of times (gave me mixed feeling of
uneasyness), but now, I am sure, this ability of Robert has been
used by negatives to make Robert a perfect soldier for Orion Empire
(behind my back), but our plans for Robert were to create a warm,
developed and a capable of many things human being. Many parents want
the same for their children.
Later I was reading Robert Monroe's biography
by Bayard Stockton, where I saw a picture of Robert Monroe's father,
Robert Emmett, doing some exercise with the baby Robert at the
beginning of last
century. That surprised me. I was doing similar exercises with my
Robert in 80's. This baby training wasn't new at all: it was
thousands of years, to make good soldiers for the Negatives/Positives.
1) I and Robert (before the age of 12 months) on a
skating ring in Sydney in in
2) Robert on roller skates with my tennis racket;
3) Robert and I are underwater;
4) , 5) and 6) pictures of our water training in the pool in Sydney;
started training Robert to
skate, rollerskate and swim before
the age of 12 months: we've been doing it together. Teaching him and
learning myself, thinking 'it was good for him'; 'he would have an
early start' : simple maths , encyclopedic knowledge , reading.
Negatives were after Robert to molest him right from the start. I
had a lot of bad publicity through media after trying to sue this
pedophile, for molesting Robert and other children.
Unfortunately we didn't win the court case. Government
paid 'social workers' were constantly getting on our nerves with
constant threats to take our child away from us if we continue and they
nearly did. The Australian government (the criminals) took the matter
to court and we had to pay a lot of money to legal profession to fight
the case and to leave my child with me!!!
can't sue a pedofile: your child can be taken away from you by a court
action as a result. NWO and those who are supporting them would always
find the reason. I've seen the same things have been happening in many
families: children were either missing or taken from parents by a
ficticious 'laws'. I was waking up real fast and had no desire to
continue my child's training. Now I know that I was programmed to get
into all that mess
right from the start.
Robert could not really
concentrate, something was not quite right : he
could read, but couldn't understand the meaning because he was too
young. Now I know how alien was this idea: to teach a baby
I should've spent more time on giving more love to the child and not
the useless 'encyclopedic knowledge', which turns a child into a robot,
a machine. And this has been so popular among the public. With the help
of movies and TV contestants would compete in how much useless
encyclopedic 'information' he or she would spit out like a
the winner will be rewarded and admired. The same thing I've been
watching on TV in many countries (inc.
Russia) for 55 years. Like Credo Mutwa, I understood that whenever we,
something for our benefit, Negatives (aliens and humans) would grab it
and make us to use it for their selfish goals, for power over others.
This is how Robert, or rather
his numerous Alters, looks and behaves now.
experience with Inorganic Beings (Low Astrals). This article you will
find on the link:
My Thoughts and Thoughts of
(esp. the face, the dog and right arm) is created by Negative Low
Astrals (Inorganic) Beings when Robert is being attacked. These attacks
could also be done electronically to distort your Energy body. On
another picture Robert doesn't seem to have arms at all and on the
3rd picture his legs and arm are distorted.
you take a picture of a violent person or just people quarreling with
each other with digital camera, you would see that the persons face and
figure becomes distorted beoynd recognition, even pieces of the body
seems to tear off. That is an indication that he/she is being attacked
Low Astrals, whom you or others can't see, esp. those who quarrel. The
use of camera can stop violent people, because Negative Low Astrals
don't like to be pictured.
I had tried to picture Robert
(my son) a few times before
(when he was violent), but each time either he would brake my
fight me or picture would later disappear. But this time it was easier
to take pictures of violent Robert, but George (though he was tired of
the scandals) would not cooperate. He was against me keeping the
pictures of negative energy Beings (Low Astrals) attacking Robert and
post them on our website for others to see, who is attacking us
everywhere and whom we cannot see yet. He erased the pictures and I
insisted on him restoring them. I told George that each time you start
quarreI with each other, I will be taking pictures of both of you, for
me to analize them later and to show them to you.
This is what happened to Robert:
his achievements were quickly used by
the Negatives, esp. the ability to sleep in water! But at the same time
if you know that everything, I mean everything including all kind of
tortures of the physical, mental, emotional and other bodies of a human
being are not done without a full approval of your Total Self in a
victim-victimizer mode. These
days a former vampire, a power lover, who used to kill people, life is
easy: he can just turn into a Christian and start giving lectures and
sell his tapes and be free to roam around, but deep inside he didn't
change and still hostile towards human females, whom he raped, killed
and whose blood he, literary, used to suck out of them. Gullible people
are listening and police is not in a hurry to jail him, but others are
jailed for just insulting someone. And the real reason for 'exposing'
illuminati is that time is coming when you would not be able to hide
anything:everyone and everything is going to be exposed automatically,
so now illuminati are preparing everyone to the things they used to do,
to make us to get used to the idea.
wish you could see how both Robert and George became suddenly very
tired, ran away to their rooms and locked the doors! That made laugh!"
can watch Bill Schnoebelen part 1 and 2 on Youtube, it is interesting
for me, but too religious:
the Illuminati from Within. Part 1 - Bill Schnoebelen
I am also giving a few modern websites and articles on water deliveries
water babies at the end of my story for those who are interested and
yes, some mothers are more comfortable with it than others, but I was
not, because of the things which happened to me before/at the
time/after the water delivery. Nevertheless I continued watertraining
of myself and my son for a few years against a lot of opposition
from 'doctors' and media,
because I was doing it my way and not the way
controlled by Reptilians. Here is a video, which is available for those
who are interested and all the details how to get it are at the end of
carreer in media was completely ruined for
good! It was the time of great depression for me. Inspite of all my
efforts to protect him from Negatives, Robert was following my and my
and became an Abductee , Mind - Controlled Sex Slave, a Remote -Viewer
Spy), a Montauk Boy and had MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder). I
then that that was Robert's Total Self's decision. Like Arizona Wilder,
Robert wasn't doing well at school, like Cathy O'Brien, he didn't have
inspite of all his efforts. Aliens have been attacking both of us big
time! Vaccinations also had devastating effects on Robert, which
children' (usually One-Timers) can read and understand at a
early age because they bring their memories with them, but we, humans,
have to start from scratch with every new life. That is a powerful
for me now, but not then. When I spiritually woke up, I was
trying to share with Robert true Knowledge from the books I was
but he didn't want to listen: he was already turned into a machine, a
Robot by the Controllers.
one more, but favorite trick the Negatives use on awakening mothers.
They trigger the mentally sick Alters of their children to show them up
in front of the mothers, to give mothers constant emotional pain,
keeping the bright and capable Alters to work for the Negatives and
away from parents' observations. Each one of us has a variety of Alters
of different capabilities and all of us have, at least one, crazy
Alter. That crazy Alter makes mothers /fathers think that their child
have a permanent brain damage from all the horrific things, which were
done to the child. But the parents don't realize that there are other
Alters their children have, mentally healthy and bright. There is also
a huge group of helpers and healers on a higher level (we are visiting
that level when falling asleep), who are constantly regenerating humans
at night for a hard day on Earth (more on that in R.Monroe's "Far
Journeys" and "Soul Journeys" by
Rosalind McKnight). The Negatives were deceiving me this way for many
years, keeping me upset and in a guilt state seeing the drastic change,
which happened to my child in later years. The situation reminds me the
dark side of the Moon! The dark site of the Moon is artificially turned
away from us at all times, this way we would never see what is really
going on the other side of the Moon (unless you astral travel there
the way R.Monroe did).
This is what is happening to our children: only one side is turned to
us - his/hers, artificially created, crazy Alter, the rest of our child
we don't see.
The Moon is the biggest alien-human military base in existence;
mind-controlling installations have been built there to control
Humanity on Earth. There is so much material on Internet,
would tell you that. One I can recommend is the book called "Defending
the Sacred Ground" by Alex Collier. Parts of it is on our link
Alex Collier info ,
you can download all of it (the address is there).
from school when
he was 12 to avoid more compulsory vaccinations. That gave both of us
freedom to explore East coast of Australia from Cape Tribulation (North
Queensland) to lake Entrance (Victoria). I drove Robert by
car for thousands of miles, two of us visited so many places when
was still a child. I love nature and wanted Robert to see it instead
of sitting in a boring classroom for half of his years, the way I did.
Robert's Mind control showed nasty signs. One of the techniques
Mind-Controllers use on him is called 'Gringer" and it's well described
by Stephanie Relfe:
we removed these 20 commands, we also did deliverance on: something
in his mind called a ‘grinder’ which does a very
low, continuous zap to other people at all times. A
very low level energy vacuum, to suck energy off others (thereby making
them not want to hang around him." Robert still has this "Grinder" and
I don't know how to remove it, except him willingly becoming a
Later I've been analizing: "Why most of my and Robert's life has been
connected to water, even my husband's work?"
From 1995 to
2001 my husband was engaged with building and testing submarines in the
Pacific and building Flight Simulators for airports. The administration
at work was treasuring him for his many
talents, precision, logic, hard work, organizational abilities and
ability to handle all kinds of people. For some unknown reason me and
Robert were allowed to have lunch with him at work. We also were
allowed to see the Flight Simulator when it was ready.
But at home my
husband was different (another Alter). I
remember how difficult it was to insist on having electricity and the
telephone line turned off over night to have a rest from it, till I
succeded at last (he, a Master Degree in Electronics, was constantly
against it). I was reading in R.Monroe's biography how apprehensive of
professionals with diplomas Bob became in his later years. How stubborn
in their not always
right or noble views, sometimes, they were;
how little practical and spiritual knowledge most of them had; how
mind-controlled and selfish some of them have been. How hard it was for
me to persuade my husband to buy and read
powerful books or videos from USA and England for my Alternative
research. He would always say :"We don't have money". But there were
always money for entertainment and unnecessary things. He was an
ultimate Mind-Controlled slave and lived
always by the rules of society (even if it went against any logic).
Robert, as a child, was psychic and had a photographic memory,
trained by aliens. Once I asked little Robert :" Why are you touching
your penis all the time ? " Robert answered : "Because someone is
constantly touching it ", but there was noone around (Low Astrals and
a neighbouring dimension easily can do it and much more than that,
using their ability not to be seen, being in another frequency). And
that many young and old males are doing the same, then I connected the
dots. Looks like Low Astrals in the neighbouring dimension are
for sex real early.
This was my first real syncronicity in 1994: I ran into a book with a
face of a Grey on
the cover. It was placed on the stand in front of a "Chemist" shop in
our area of Castle Hill, Sydney. The name of the
book was "Communion" by Whitley Strieber: that book started my
research on UFO's and abductions .
In the end of 1995 I found out about Robert
Monroe and started
reading his books, then all 5 Montauk books by Peter Moon and
could get on Philadelphia Experement, then Alex Collier's "Defending
the Sacred Ground" and all his lectures on video, all "Matrix" books
edited by Val Valerian, David Icke's "The Biggest Secret", Cathy
O'Brien's "Trance-Formation in America" and many other books. The more
I've read the
sicker to my stomach I would become. And I thought: "Why do aliens hate
us so much? What have we done to them? All the
authorities, teachers, governments were deceiving me all this time?
How stupid I was to trust them! Why was I asleep? Things like
"aliens eating us
like we eat chicken" and a websites like www.manbeef.com would make me
bedridden. In those days that website was selling
human meat with recepies how to cook it (later they changed it to
selling sex). I found the answers to my questions later myself. Like
many others, I've been through most of the
materials (books, magazines, videos and audio tapes, CD's, DVD's )
from Val Valerian's Leading Edge, Robert Monroe's Institute, William
Buhlman's website, David Icke, Credo Mutwa, Arizona Wilder, William
Cooper, Carlos Castaneda, Robert Moaning-Sky, Brice Taylor, Barbara
Bartholic, "Inner Earth" magazine and all the books about Hollow
Earth ,"Nexus" magazine and "Nexus" conferences and all kind of other
But I didn't be
that I could start my own website and that I have
a lot to say: discouraging Wernicke's commands, installed into the
Wernicke's part of my brain (secretly) have been doing a pretty good
job to keep me asleep. My awakening made things worse: aliens,
husband and my son, former ' friends' or just people everywhere were
attacking me every day and I often was attacking them. My husband never
a word I said about Robert's and my abductions and other things. Later
I would read
about the same situation with other people who was waking up and it was
giving me a boost of energy to keep the struggle for my Awakening.
1995 all 3 of us
flew to Los
Angeles, hired a car and
drove around all California with Disneyland and part of Nevada, Death
Vegas (stayed in the Pyramid hotel), Mt. Shasta, Yocemite National Park
, Lake Tahoe (all the favorite places of Illuminati, which I found out
later), where Robert's mind-control have been reinforced behind my
back. For some reason I was very interested in Death valley, but when
we got there I was disappointed: there
was nothing much to see there. On the way to Los Angeles I had food
poisoning, I was so
bad that I thought I would never see Australia again, but somehow
managed to avoid hospitals. Food has been a
favorite mind controlling factor used by Controllers on their slaves.
Over the years I
noticed how much I was manipulated
1998 we went to
Argentina and Brasil. The reason
was to see a 'famous Brasilian healer' who, we thought, could help my
husband to restore his hearing, because I couldn't help him. That was
a new experience for us.
I found an article about the 'healer' in "Nexus"magazine (subsidised by
Rosacrutians), read a recommended book, watched the
video on the subject, found Sydney
person connected to the 'healer', who gave us very little
information how to find the 'healer'.
We flew to Buenos-Aires first and
then to Brasilian capital Brasilia (there were no direct flights from
Australia to Brasil). The city felt very dry and very negative,
like Canberra in Australia. Finally we found Abajiania,
the village, in Central Brasil. 'Healing centre'
devoted to Jesus was built next to it. Their winter was
extremely hot with no natural running water, pretty much like
deserts in outback of Australia instead of expected lush Amasonian
Couple of small hotels were built for the tourists like us. We were
suppose to spend a week there and all we were doing was to stand in
long queues to see 'the healer' and buy their 'blessed water'.
Occasionally 'the healer' would demonstrate his 'talents' to the
gullible people. The place felt very negative. In couple of days my
husband's and Robert's behavior became strangly hostile towards me,
like they've been possessed, hypnotised, programmed to do
things, which I never saw them doing.
Then it dawned on me: the whole set up was for milking the energies
and money from the sick and the last thing they wanted to have was
someone like me. Everything looked like a fraud. The idea of
kissing Jesus' picture and drinking their 'holy' water didn't appeal to
me. George and Robert were steaming, didn't want to leave that place
and it took me all my might to get them out of that shithole! I think
they've lost part of their souls in that place: they've never been the
we flew to Iguazu Falls (sounds like iguana), the biggest in South
America. I was really impressed by the power of it. Wild racoon's of
Falls were so entertaining and so unusual for me. I maveled at their
ability to walk on metal tubed fences without falling into the Fall.
Feeding them with fruit was a real treat for me. The
picture of the Falls was breathtaking! I had the same impression from
Niagara Falls. Iguazu Falls is on the border with 3 countries: Brasil
, Argentina and Paraguay. I saw working Minions, heaps of them (people
soul), on the
border between Argentina and Paraguay. They looked like ants, walking
one after another, like a chain, carrying
some boxes on their backs over the bridge from one country to another,
an endless flow of slaves. I got very unsettled, like it reminded me
something, maybe myself, in the past life.
I remember Robert Monroe described this kind of people of
South America. I forgot how they were called. Smoking was permited
everywhere: planes, public transport, casinos, theatres, shows etc. I
felt I was exposed to some electronic weapon and had trouble to
were legal and very popular. The atmosphere of Brasil and Argentina
felt negative and like in Russia: people's life had no value. The
river close to Buenos Aires was as filthy as a garbage tip. I was
thinking how could people still survive in those places?
1996 to 2000 my
husband was transfered to work in one of the coastal
surburbs of Sydney. I used this opportunity to break the monotony of
life in Castle Hill (I felt like I've been jailed in there) and went
with him and Robert 2/3 times a week to
explore Northern, Central, Southern and Eastern beaches of Sydney. That
was a really good time.
The beaches were magnificient! Robert and I would spend days and days
of swimming, observing the locals, examining rock formations and
alien civilizations of Lemuria near the ocean. I was surprised to find
evidence there. Things like huge pieces of rocks welded together by
metal, rocky floors with geometric designs and other interesting
findings right on the beach and not just in Sydney, but in most
coastal and mountain areas of East of Australia. Thoughts were flooding
my mind: "Why
am I here and doing this explorations, maybe I'm somehow connected to
these civilizations? Who left these marks and why noone writes
about it in the magazines, books or newspapers?"
These areas were totally different to where we lived.
the years I
experienced a lot
of poltergeist activity in our house, which we built with my husband. I
thought that that could only happen in very old houses, but it seemed
to follow us wherever we would go. Some invisible entities were
breaking things in front of my eyes (or making Robert or me to brake
them 'accidently'), pushing with force me or Robert or doing other
things. Robert and my husband have been mind manipulated to become my
constant guilt generators of 'you
are a bad mother' comments, dragging me back into the Game, which I
didn't want to play. And
would tell them: "I am a bad mother/wife, then go and find a good one,
the door is opened!" (what my mother used to say to me, when I called
a bad mother. The same programming). What
I discovered later, that as a results of constant tortures we had in
that house, a portal to another Universe has been created.
Aliens have been using
the same tricks on all of us for
writers described the same things, which have been done to
was a relief: I wasn't the only one in this situation. I had all
the necessary material things, but it didn't make me happy and
reading Monroe's books was like a remedy for me. I tried to go Astral
with partial success. My arms or legs would float, but not my body,
feeling that I was touched, pricked or squizzed at day and at night,
being dragged by the
feet almost out of my body, someone invisible was pressing hard into my
Heart or Crown
chakras and simultaneously turning my energy body into a semicircle. I
still don't know what it all means. I often have been stun-gunned into
my 3rd Eye chakra before
asleep with such a force, that my body would shake violently and the
whole room would lit up for a
moment. Sometimes I
that someone was trying to use my vocal cords, because the words which
were coming from my mouth were not my usual words (too sophisticated)
and I still don't know whether it was one of my Alters or some entity
trying to use me as a channelor. I used
Monroe's Gateway a lot then and couldn't understand why others could
and I couldn't go Astral? I envied them and was so upset that
could't meet R. Monroe, before his transition from this Earth. The same
happened with other writers: Carlos
Castaneda, William Buhlman etc. By the time I was able
to meet them they were either off this planet or the workshop would be
cancelled for some unknown reason. "Why am I constantly late?" I was
asking myself. That looked like a set up. Also, it wasn't
always financially easy for me to travel from Australia to USA.
joined Monroe Institute as a member, got Gateway CD's and tried to
persuade my husband
to build a Check Unit at home because I couldn't afford to go to Monroe
Institute at that time. But he built a floatation tank instead. The
project failed, someone, definately, didn't like that the idea
a Check unit at our place. I connected to some
of Australian members of Monroe Institute but eventually lost all the
connections. My husband was constantly acting on me: some aliens
(positive and negative) have
the ability to mesmerise us and they would never give up!
I remember in 1996
all 3 of us had
a colossal car accident on New
England Hwy near a few ancient Pyramids on New England Hwy in NSW. We
were moving from State
of NSW to Queensland when my husband lost consciousness while driving
high risk zone of the Hwy and hit another car. Me and Robert
miraculously had no real injuries, but my husband suffered the most:
his head, leg and side had wounds. Our car was crushed beyond repair.
ambulance arrived twice and twice I had to sign the papers that I was
my husband's personal doctor (though I never had an official diploma)
took full responsibilities for his treatment. As soon as we got to our
Queensland's home I started applying compresses with his own urine and
ozone. In 2 days George could walk with crutches and another 2 weeks
without them. He was alright again without any intrusion of 'medical
personel' or 'hospitals'! We both were amazed. Most of us don't believe
in our own healing powers and I didn't till then. That gave me a lot of
I also loved dancing, esp. ballroom dancing to the point of obsession.
Being tall and looking like a man (often) it was hard for me to find a
partner and, finally, I did. And as usual I had to become a coach and a
dancing (though a male suppose to be the leader in ballroom dancing,
but often it's a female (reminds me "Daffny, you are leading again!"
the role Jack Lemmon played in "Some like it
Hot"). I couldn't help it: it was in my blood. I remember how, after
many months of training, my parther and I went to a Russian Ball in
Sydney to see how Russians party and to dance. We had a big success
Council's meetings in 1999-2000, Castle Hill, Sydney, NSW (state of
New South Whales) and Public Forum on Cloning of Human Beings on 29
March, year 2000 in Can-beer, capital of Ass-tralia.
I know now that problems we all experiencing are created for us, to
overcome them, to build ourselves up and win/graduate this Game. But in
was still heavily involved with the Game. I learn as I go.
This is an interesting case, which helped me to make a gigantic step in
my personal evolvement.
We had a lot of
trouble with the
local Council. The land we bought was
a part of an easement for the creek, part of a buffer zone in case of
flood and we didn't know it. This block was illegally approved for sale
by the Council and
being sold to us (me and my boyfrind and future husband). We were naive
and didn't know about buffer zones
then and built our dream home on a steep bank of a creek. Life in
Sydney and life in our house were
becoming a nightmare with rapid expansion of suburbs around us. Each
time I would come to the Council and ask about a buffer zone which was
supposed to divide our, very narrow, strip of residential land from
industrial zone on the other side of our house, the council officers
would get confused and fearful: because we were that buffer between
residential and industrial zones.
Council was across the road of our
house. Later I found out about many
other dirty deals corrupted councils of Sydney were doing.
Once George and I
were puzzled to
learn that our house was considered
NON-EXISTENT for 15 years, inspite of us paying Council's fees every
year. We found out about it at the Waterboard (gov. organization in
charge of water supply of Sydney) by accident, when we wanted to get
a bore on our land. The 'mistake' was immidiately corrected. Our
house was approved by the Council many years before that incident.
After 20 years our house nearly collapsed into the creek: the
Council didn't allow us to built a retaining wall in the creek to
stop the erosion of the bank where the house was built, conviniently
forgetting that it was built in Buffer Zone for the creek.
For us it felt like a
set up created by the Council to torture us. They created a cul-de-sac,
pushed us into
the corner. There was no way back for me, but to go forward
fighting the Council (against my husband's will, he had undescribable
fear of authorities). That struggle turned from the personal matter
into a political one (surprisingly for me).
I gained a lot of
knowledge from reading alternative materials by 1999 and became more
confident in understanding the political situation on Earth. Knowledge
is Power, how very true! It gave me the power correct the injustice
done to us. My husband learned how true humans can fight modern
plagues. The heavy Mind-Control was broken and I
started doing the technique "you walk, you talk" (Alex
Collier suggestion), giving people a hint of what you are reading
about. After collecting enough evidence and remembering things which
were happening to me, my son
and others like us.
I had an appointment with
the Local Member of the Parliament (MP) first. The door was kept opened
his secretaries could listen to our conversation (they were sacked
later). I told him about being abducted, about constant use of my
body for sex slavery and for production of fetuses, I told him about
human meat for sale, about dishonest actions of local council
more. I asked him what he was going to do about it? His face became
I thought he was having a stroke, but he quickly recovered
looking very frightened. Scared of me? I didn't expect that: I had
no gun, just papers proving a few things! He said that he couldn't do
anything about it.
Then I went to see our Federal MP and told him about Reptilians eating
our children, about aliens raping us as little children in order we
would rape each other in the future and other things and if he could do
something about it. And the same thing happened again: an expression
of fear and confusion on his face. Then I realized that both MPs knew
and participated in the
things I told them about. They knew that long before I turned up in
offices. They wouldn't occupy positions they had otherwise. I was still
Lightsider. But one thing is when you read about it in the books and
thing is when you experience it.
The pressure from the Council on us
became even greater. They wanted us to vanish from the face of the
Earth, but my Total Self had other plans.
who had problems with their Councils had an opportunity to present them
writing as well as in a form of a speech at one of their meetings with
public. It is all a theatre for a gullible public. Well,
our problem was presented in writing (my husband) and in speech form
(me). I had to overcome stage fright and an emotion of hopelessness.
While giving a speech I made an interesting observation. When I was
talking about our personal matter, the material thing (the house),
there was an absolute silence in the
audience of about 70 people. It felt like being in the vacuum, no
reaction, like I
was talking to nobody (strange feeling) and that made no effect on
I couldn't understand what was happening. Like something different was
expected from me and I didn't do it.
But as soon as I started
speaking to the audience about Reptilians and them eating us, like we
everything changed: I felt life around me again, the audience woke up,
the mayor and his helpers were shouting to stop me from speaking,
the microphone was getting hiccups. But I tried to shout as much as I
could. At moments like this I don't feel any fear, instead I get an
enjoyment and encouragement out of it. I noticed that I
was making speeches at the Council better without the fear of my
husband. Later I was amazed that nothing
happened to me and I wasn't put to jail. At home I started getting
dreams of doing the same in
shouting about Reptilians at Councils. It was like a Ripple Effect.
Then I remembered my mother. She was doing similar things in Russia
only I went
a bit further: from personal to political.
My fear of any Parliament/Council and other political organizations has
evaporated overnight! After a few of such speeches Council satisfied
our demands. They even built a
retaining wall at their expense, allowing us to sell our place and
move to Queensland permanently. I gained a lot of experience as a
result of this struggle.
I remember straight after one of the Council's meetings I was talking
to a big group of kindergarten teachers of our area in front of
Baulkham Hills Shire Council chambers. I told them about Reptilian
invasion of our planet and that aliens rape and eat our children alive.
astonished by the total indifference and hostility of this group of
'women' except one female. I know that female was a human
because her reaction to my words was a shock. Emotional torture was
written all over her face. It looked like I triggered some of her
memories. That moment it dawned on me: most of females who were
working in kindergartens were of foreign energy, not my energy. And
what I was reading in "The Biggest Secret" and other books
And it's not just happenning in the former Soviet Union, England or
USA! It's happening all over the World including Australia.
In year 2000 our
Federal member of
the Parliament published an ad in
the local paper about Public Forum on Human Cloning in March (year
in Canberra with an invitation for everyone to attend and give a
speech. That was the final Forum (after a similar Forum in every
capital of Australia). Well, I decided to attend and give a speech on
the subject (I've learnt a bit about cloning by then). My husband was
against this idea, but didn't want me to go alone (without
Robert was interested and joined us (though quickly disappeared from
the Main Hall
of the Parliament when I was giving the speech, to be reprogrammed
behind my back). When, at the Parliament House, I
was surprised to see a familiar face of our Federal MP and tried to
talk to him during a break, but he was running away from me, kind of
hiding among people (looking scared). I was puzzled: I didn't mean
any harm. There were lots of people at the Forum: 15 MPs at the
long table, many scientists, doctors, clergymen, representatives of
different companies interested in manufacturing clones, financial reps,
legal profession, journalists and just people interested in the
I prepared a speech,
electronic attack was used on me to prevent me from talking in the
Hall. This destructive energy was so overwhelming, that I couldn't
memorise what I had written, I
couldn't concentrate and the time was quickly coming to the end of the
Forum. My husband was doing his share of disruption. I was the last
Then I ignored the written material and said things which I
didn't expect myself saying: about our Creative Powers , that there
was nothing we couldn't do (R. Monroe), about why we came to Earth and
where we were going after, that we were immortal, that we really didn't
need Clones and other negative things. The speech was spontanious! And
that is exactly
what aliens and those who are helping them are scared of : Spontaniaty!
I didn't speak about
Reptilians this time, though I knew that the Parlament was full of
them. I'm sure that most of the people in the Hall
at the Forum were non-numans. At least the audience didn't try to
stop me from speaking, I didn't have to shout and nobody was shouting
at me this time !
In a few months we managed to sell our place and
left Sydney (NSW)
for Queens-land , where we bought
some land on Eastern coast near nudist male beach. It was also next to
Turtle rookery (part of National park), where big sea turtles were
laying their eggs. Our block of land had a circle of enormous rocks
with a rectangular flat rock in the centre, it was big enough for a
couple of humans
to lie on. It looked to me like a forsaken, sacrificial site of the
past. I didn't
like the idea and with a help of a bulldozer had it dismantled. Low
Astrals were definately not happy about my idea and the Hell broke
lose: another fight with a local council. This Council was full of
Reptillian females (I
didn't know it then) and mind-controlled neighbours started giving us
constant troubles. I planned to organize a spiritual centre. But
everything from the start was manipulated into a failure and I thought:
" Why? Wherever
we move we are attacked by councils, neighbours or just people around
wherever we were searching for a new place, nothing felt right in
terms of energy? "I didn't know then that Queensland was a Reptilian
State, occupied mostly by aliens and Australian language sometimes
me some Reptilian dialect (depends who is speaking to you in
Australian). Many times
in Queens-land areas I heard how
Reptilians talked to each other on a tennis court or at the Market when
they were in a state of fear to be recognized. The same language was
used by my son when his body was occupied (posessed) by Low Astrals and
that Astral being (not my son) would give us a scandal.
I knew from R.Monroe books that we never die and life on higher density
much more interesting and rewarding.
I felt tired of constant struggle with everyone
(inc. Robert) and started losing interest in life, which ended up with
an unsuccessful attempt to suicide. I thought that drowning would be
an ideal choice: the ocean was next door. I had no experience of how
to suicide by drowning: I needed a manual. I swam further into the
ocean from male
nudist beach, but forgot to tie a rock to my neck, didn't want to
return to the shore and started drinking water to become heavier
(usually I float
like a cork). I spend an hour drinking salty water and trying to sink
to the bottom (but the water was leaving me through the bladder), till
got very cold on a hot sunny day. I got bored and swam back to the
shore only to find a naked man with erected penis standing in water and
smiling at me. It made me disgusted and to run into the bush.
Now that incident makes me laugh (and, perhaps, my Total Self too).
To my surprise it's not easy to die. That proved me one thing:
if your Total Self doesn't want you to die, you wouldn't, no matter
how much you try.
After many years of being a Lightsider and sharing my Knowledge with
others who were not ready for it I finally gave up. I didn't know
anything about the Law of Allowence and the Law of Attraction in 2001.
My husband was more of a Lightsider and Robert was becoming more of a
Darksider. I didn't have anyone to share my knowledge with, it felt
like living in the vacuum. I always hoped how nice it would be if all 3
of us evolve together.
How very alien this idea was! Everyone is different and has their own
pace and time of Graduation from a Game like that, which I found about
the hard way.
One positive output of those years was that I've learnt how
to explain the most complex ideas in the most simple form in English
and in Russian .
Since we moved from
Queensland's East coast after the age of
17 Robert's body and memory started rapidly deteriorating. It could be
a multiple reason : the result of the replacement of the natural
physical body with a cloned one and with only a part of his soul, the
constant tortures from aliens during abductions, detrimental effects of
vaccinations, like triple
antigen (when he was just a tiny baby) and
also the place we moved to. This part of East coast of Queensland is
so damaged by past nuclear explosions that remnants of ancient
fortresses are of charcoal colour (black). Fused together, melted and
then cooled rocks are
thrown all over this region. There is so much radioactivity coming from
place. Only Reptilians can flourish here and there are heaps of them
around. In 8 years living here my and Robert's bodies became deformed.
We tried to sell the house and move out of this area, but again some
negative force was interfering with our plans: it was impossible to
sell the house; the history was repeating itself (like in Castle Hill,
Sydney). But it must
be the reason why I'm still here.
Elliott Heads were we
settled down is an Anomaly place: the result of
ancient nuclear explosions of the East Coast of Australia
(see more info on our link Anomalous Events
on this website).
2001, in Elliott Heads I saw 2 suns: one was setting down behind the
fields as usual; the other one, a Ghost Sun turned up 20 min later just
above East coast of Pacific ocean in
Queensland, where we moved. The sun above the ocean looked like a huge
light blue circle of a ghost sun with blue rays in the form of wide,
strips radiating from the centre with an empty spot in the
pinkish-lilac background. You can see something like that on a painting
SPECTACULAR! My husband and Robert saw that too. That lasted for 10-15
min. And later it happened again
in the same place a few times. I was wondering if anyone else saw what
Maybe it was Sun of 4th Density or one of parallel realities? I still
don't know how to explain it. The same happened with moons. I saw 2
Moons and showed them to my son, but I don't remember exact year,
only know that it was after year 2000. It looked so artificial, like in
a movie. I also have seen the Fabric of Time in Elliott river mouth.
In that very powerful for me
my family (3 of us) took a World trip , 9 countries: Darwin -
the capital of Northern Territory (State of Australia), Bali-Indonesia,
Singapore, Russia, Finland, Ireland, England,
Canada, USA, New Zealand. We never done it before and were very excited
about it. Strangely enough Robert didn't want to go, like he sensed
something bad in advance, but my husband insisted (I was
wondering why? Maybe
because positive aliens like to do everything together, compare to us,
who, quite often have to do many things alone). By
reconstructing these 3 month's journey I was trying to see the signs of
my progress as a result of the unbearable stress.
First stop was in Darwin. There is a new movie now called
"Australia" which is worth watching. In 2002 that place felt very
negative to us.
By chance, near Darwin, in National Park's waterhole we met a group
of Russian males led by a young couple: male and female. They were
military personel only without uniforms. I was so happy to speak to
Russians and told them a few things about aliens. Immidiately their
behavior changed. They became reserved, this is so typical of
Russians who are here on an assignment. What they told me, that
they've been transporting military forces from country to country and a
duty of the Jewish couple was to watch these people and the operations
and report to their bosses. I thought: " That's
interesting! Could they belong to special
forces I was reading so much about?"
Things have changed. To have a female, and also a Jewish
one as a leader of Russian males was unthinkable in USSR 40 years ago.
was Bali (Indonesia). We landed at night (this is so common to the
tropical regions), which made me think that that was the reason,
because aliens were hiding a
lot of stuff in the ocean, which can't be seen at night. The hotel we
booked and payed in advance
was dreadful and I didn't hesitate to tell the owner about it. I don't
know why but he was scared of me like hell. I was surprised to see so
many statues devoted to reptilian Gods (more
than in Europe), they were all over the place. Indonesians don't kind
of hide, that they worship Reptilians in their real form. We hired
a driver to show us around the island. Minions (these humans with
animal souls, sometimes, they can be unbearable, depends what their
microchips are triggering them to do). With their souvenirs for
sale, they were pestering us everywhere till I put a stop to it by
at them. The driver told me that I was merciless, even cruel, towards
'poor' people for not buying their useless souvenirs. Then, for the
first time, I replied that I had both sides in me:
positive and negative. The terror was written all over his face: he
looked at me like I was a Dragon. That was
significant: these words coming from me for the first time amazed me,
because they meant Balance, but the idea of Balance seems shocking to
many humans, which I found later.
closer to Balance
made me very happy. Now I realise that there was a
connection between Secret Societies' members, they made sure that we
be attacked in every possible way and we were and not just in Bali,
but through the whole journey. Then we visited Russia and Finland were
bizarre mindcontrolling techniques were used on me and Robert driving
us out of our minds. Next stop was England, London.
After reading the book and watching a video "Alternative 3" I was a
bit worried about Hiss-throw airport in London where people always had
troubles or disappearing all together. It is an Anomaly place like Pine
'Gap' in Australia.
I always tried to
airport as much as I could, but the flights there were arranged
specifically to make some people to disappear into other timelines, so
get from Ireland to Toronto (Canada) we had to go via England, and
change planes in
London, because we were told that there were no straight flights. Plane
from Dublin to London was a bit late, but we still could
get on the plane to Toronto where our luggage was sent. We were
refused to board the plane and asked to wait in another
Terminal. The situation
was annoying. The terminal, the female at the counter, the interiour of
building looked odd, there were NO PEOPLE, no any other personel in
this very busy airport.
I thought how strange the whole situation was! It felt like it was
deliberatory staged for us, but why?
has a few
Terminals some parts are very old, some
are new. Everybody heard about a building of a new Terminal 5
section in that airport later and a mess they had there for many days:
this is not new. As usual, I had to play a role of my husband's
and my son's protector and
a saviour and take everything into my hands. Someone
was playing tricks with us: we were sent from Terminal to
Terminal for couple of hours, then asked to wait for a few hours in
this unimaginable chaos. Then, all over sudden, we were
told to rush to the last plane to Toronto for that day. Reminds me
modern unnerving hick ups at the airports all over the world (for
humans, but not for aliens), when people are discouraged to fly by
selling them unrelable tickets, days' waiting and sleeping at the
Terminals, sudden closure of airlines, refusal to return money for the
tickets, loss of luggage, money or documents and other prearranged
reached the Terminal we discovered that the passengers of ALL FLIGHTS
had to go through ONE CHECK POINT. I've never seen anything like this
in such a busy airport. That created a very long queue looking
like a huge herd of cows and
made everyone very nervous. First, the handles of our luggage were
with some kind
(I thought it was either biological or chemical weapon).
Then the queue had to split into 2 lines to get through the next 2
security points. We had very little time to catch the last plane. The
fork separated us: I went with Robert into one line, but my husband
moved alone to another one for the examinations of ourselves and our
hand luggage. In this crazy situation, while collecting
the hand luggage, he forgot his wallet with all our tickets, money and
documents in one of the x-ray machines. But we noticed it too late.
Meantime we were galloping miles through the tunnels full of people
3 mad cows, just
to get in time for the plane. And when we finally reached the
Departure Gate, we discovered the loss of the tickets and I sent my
husband and Robert to run back
the same distance to the check point hoping to find the lost wallet
(I was a slower runner). But after waiting for sometime I decided to
back in the same direction. I've lost both of them, but
reached the same check point. When I asked one of security officers
about the wallet with our tickets, money and documents, he said that
he'd never seen it. I was devastated! Then that
same sense of
hopelessness I experience occasionally. I thought that it was the end
of the world, that we lost everything and sure that
we missed plane again. My emotions reached the peak and I started
screaming and ran to find a superviser. He sent me back to the
security officer who was holding our wallet in his hands. The
place seemed a bit different though.
I didn't have time to waste and ran back finding my husband
Robert 'by miracle'. Then, again 'by miracle' we got on
the plane to Toronto. When I looked at the watch: the whole 'incident'
took 15-20 min., which was impossible. Running alone would've taken a
couple of hours! Later
it dawned on me: maybe someone was using my emotions to create
another parallel time line in which the wallet was lost and made all 3
of us to jump from one timeline to another. I thought: "Don't we
have enough of them (timelines)? Why do aliens need more of them, if
Parallel Timelines would have to come to the main timeline by the end
of the Planetary Game any way?"
In Toronto, Canada we visited Niagara Falls, which was unforgetable. It
dream comes true for me, because nothing would impress me so much, but
the power of water.
Controllers continue to drive us totally insane, especially in the
of major cities.
In Los Angeles, on the day of departure Robert (a Montauk boy) was
doing crazy things on Venice Beach (one of the most weird, negatively
charged places of USA, though it's hard to detect it). He had a habit
to insist on swimming in the ocean at the day of the departure, no
matter what. Then he
was abducted and reappeared totally crazy when it was almost too late
to board the
plane. Robert was constantly saying at the airport that he wanted to
suicide by opening the door in the plane (suicidal commands after the
abduction), making everyone very nervous, especially us. After the
fight with the Councils and my speech at the
Parliament House I was on the list, so it didn't surprise me at all
that policemen were intimidating me in the plane and at the airport. I
didn't like it.
All three of us were taken of the flight. The main blow was directed
into me, threats continued, but I wasn't behaving the way they wanted
me to behave: shake from fear! We were told that without a medical
evaluation stating that Robert was sane enough to fly, the authority
wouldn't let Robert to fly to Australia. Eventually we ended up in the
airport hotel (the place felt like Hell). I was so pissed off with
Robert's behavior that the next morning I told the medical authorities
that they could keep Robert in Los Angeles forever, that I didn't need
him. They didn't expect such a turn of events, they though that as a
mother I was addicted to my son and I would do anything in order to
keep him with me. Robert was 17 already. But there is a limit to any
my total surprise, as soon as I said that, psychiatrist quickly gave a
saying that Robert was fit to fly. It wasn't difficult to connect the
dots: Robert's mind manipulation was coming from the same source and
the same goal: to break my Spirit through my son's crazy behaviour. I
Robert, I gave birth to, was exchanged for a clone with a part of the
original soul, I didn't know anything about Alters then. Not to have
Robert as a spy and a torturer for me would've been unthinkable for
Secret Society members. Having Robert and my husband to drag me
back into the
Game was ideal for the NWO and those who are helping them (I was
thinking then). It seemed that aliens were
surprised that I no longer had connection to my son and my husband and
stopped being their savior, that made it harder for them to manipulate
me through them. All through the rest of the journey I was observing
the most bizarre behavior of a human: my son. The purpose was to show
me what they, the Low Astrals were capable of doing. The list
to long to mention, but nevertheless we safely came back to Australia.
That trip, probably, was one of the most distinct changes in the
pattern of my life. I was 56 years of age then. I chose a Rocky road
2003 I finished reading the first (blue)
version of M 5 and what was surprising that in a few months I
completely forgot about what I've read in it (the result of mind
I noticed that a part of the
programming is to make us to do nasty
things to friends, relatives or just people (by the use of arificially
created negative Alters, so we would be carring
that guilt for many years and it would be harder for us to spiral out
of the Game. I had that guilt for years, but not anymore.
I was used in 'Love Bite' experiments, without me knowing that (for
more info about this kind of experiments see our link Eve
Lorgen info ).
later in Australia I read in Eve Loren's book: " Tagging experience of
an abductee takes the form of an actual injection or inserted tracer
(implant), which as a ritualistic 'bite' much like an insect or a
snake bite and leads to changes of the person's normal relationships,
of their metabolism, of life force, of their mental state and
brainwaves especially after several abductions in many years or in
vivid dreams with all kind of interactions: verbal, physical, sexual".
I also didn't know that the same could happen to homosexual -
lesbian couples and that often only one partner would remember the
meeting (the other might not) and when meeting in real life they
would have an instant sense of recognition and 'falling in love' and
than one of the partners would be switched off, causing the other
one going crazy. That made a lot of sense to me. l had plenty of it
with my boyfriends. And not just that. I've seen so many people around
me were going through the same tortures (inc. my huband and my son).
This subject have been very popular in the movies and books of
different cultures. According to Eve Loren's observations first, the
connection was like 'soul immersion', then it
would turn into mental exhaustion and plain stupidity: memory loss,
obsession, jealozy and posessiveness, loss of self-esteem and desire
to please the partner by dressing better, putting make-up on, having a
plastic surgery or
doing things for him. 'Love' affairs were nothing
but insertion of a
tagging implant into my physical body and transporting a small amount
of my auric energy into an auric energy field of a male (during
abduction of both of us) to make a male to be crazy about me. Or to
do the same to a male: take a bit of his auric energy and insert it
into my auric energy field to make me crazy about that male. The
materials I've read on
the subject and TV
series " Taken " in 2006 helped me to understand the situation.
started reading "Matrix 5" Golden edition in 2004 and learned from
that book and "Handbook for a New Paradigm" the difference between
watcher and observer. I definately wasn't a watcher. Watcher prefers to stay in
the Game, observer is trying to spiral out
of it. I was definately spiraling out of it. Watcher is passive, but
doesn't hesitate to use the observations for playing in the Game.
Observer is active and trying to use the observations for personal
I found it great, because I was already doing it!
In 2003 all three of us went to David Icke's conference to Brisbane,
which was organized in the most negative part of the city - central
University. I love listening to David Icke's audiocassettes, he makes
me laugh. And I also find his books and videos a tremendous help, but
the frase "I love the Queen" in "The Biggest Secret" was a bit
contradictory to what he wrote in that book. It was good to have
someone of his calibre giving a
lecture in isolated Australia. The conference was very successful:
there were a
lot of people there. But what I later realised, that this conference
took place in one of Parallel Universes.
times in my
later years I found that people scared of me for
no reason (like now they are scared of Robert for just looking at
connected the dots: wernicke's commands inserted in Robert's and other
people' s brains; this is a very powerful technique used in mind
control. I had
nothing against people and later turned it into having fun. Now I know
why: because I was surrounded by aliens without knowing it, they were
scared of me. They very well knew who I was, but I, for most of my
thought they were humans just like me. I learned how much pain
they can give you by doing many nasty things to you or simply by
touching you at energetic points. But that is a part of the Planetary
read somewhere that for a Scorpio sex is one of the most difficult
loops to overcome. That's exactly right! I still have no knowledge of
Astrology and, like Robert Monroe, have no desire to spend time on it.
I lived a lot of time in a female's body and naturally know more how to
live and what to expect from living in a female's body (than in a male
many years of observing
these things in life I came to conclusion
that aliens are afraid of gifted psychic females, because
these females know how to distinguish an alien from a human. I
was always wondering why human females mature faster than males, why
bodies are usually more tolerant to hardships and pain, why are they
more psychic overall compare to human males? A male is a 'giver of
life' according to Matrix 5 author,
but what role an awakened human female is playing in life than? And
again, according to Matrix 5 author, females are live
incubators for fetuses and nothing else. This ideology smelled like
Sirian propaganda, supported by all negatives: alien and human.
know that aliens would do
everything in their power to destroy
sexual chakra in human females, to make sure that
these particular females would not see the Game for what it is, not be
able to see and feel the difference between an alien and a human. Alien
attention has always been concentrating on the destruction of females'
womb (the area of the sexual chakra): either removing it
surgically or at least making it numb or painful by inserting metal
objects or michrochips into the womb or having abortions/miscarriges.
The best solution for
achieve desirable results is to create Mind-controlled Sex- Slaves out
of the most psychic children, to promote: sex with human/alien of the
gender (often with Reptilian males), marriages, pregnancies,
abortions, giving birth to children, creating miscarrages and periods.
I was thinking : "We know from wars through the history of our planet:
what would human males do after the slaughter of other males? Rape all
human females and their daughters, especially young ones and not just
destroy the ability of the womb (sexual chakra) to work as an antenna.
Human males have been raised to act violently.
This is my
periods (menstrual cycles) and
miscarriages in females are artificially induced states !!! They are
not natural, they are the results of constant alien interference
with the wombs to get fetuses out once or twice a month and to destroy
sexual chakras of all human females to stop them from SEEING,
starting from 5 to11 years of age.
Even some alien females in human
bodies could have
periods! Human females are considered hens or cows by negatives, to
milk them of their energies.
We are getting eggs from chooks, aliens are getting fetuses and vital
energies from human females. I know that from my personal
Being a future Graduate, I was obviously heavily involved in
abduction scenario as well as my mother, sister, brother and my son.
I sleep alone in the room since 17 and I've been noticing triangular
marks, scoops, needle punctures, ulsers, inflammations, bruises, scars
and burn marks on
my body and in my mouth, tongue and teeth appearing
overnight for all my life. That would make anyone think even
if the most of the memory is erased. Well, all my spiritual chakras
completely destroyed. I was heavily programmed to have heterosexual
relationships for all of my life in this body, except for the last 8
years, when I finally overcame that loop, but the destruction is still
continues. Negatives don't want me to see the developments on planet
You can/could talk about Germans, Russians, Chinese, English,
Americalns and other nations freely,
but not about Jews. Why?
When I lived in Russia I was surprised to see one Jewish member in my
non Jews in my family.
My mother managed to keep him away from us. But when I finally moved
into my own flat he rang me up to offer me
'help' in arranging
the things for me and that was strange (after 20 years of
absence). He fell down on
the floor with the ladder trying to nail a picture on the wall. He
didn't hurt himself, but was pretty shaken. I couldn't stop laughing.
I've never seen him ever again. Now I know that My Higher Self
arranged that, to get rid of another handler.
noticed pretty early that all
through my life: me and my family
were surrounded by Jews,
like we were a magnet for them, who would often bring us a trouble. I
counted about a hundred of Jews, who's been trying to become my
personal handler and through the books I found that I was not the only
one whom Jews have been constantly monitoring. I was
always surprised why a news article in Russia or abroad can critizise
any nationality in the World, but hardly ever Jews (negative aliens
often chose Jewish and Arien bodies to incarnate). They would create a
I've been watching their behaviour in the USSR for years (and even now)
and came to the conclusion that their 'Fame' is well justified. 99% of
them is still the same like hundrens years ago: overly religious on the
surface, dominiring, selfish, greedy for everything physical, material
and for power/control in any form. They penetrated all the religions
and societies. It was always like Jews were
separate from anyone else. Their desire to dominate everyone else in
the USSR (and even now, in modern Russia) was never approved by
Russians and other nationalities living in other Republics.
(I can't say that all Jews are that way, the same I say that not all
Reptilians are that way: Service to Self. There is a tiny percentage of
the renegade, which I hope will increase with Earth Changes). But they
are not the only race of 'Chosen People'. White Arian race also
consider themselves 'Chosen People' and I've seen and read about a lot
of negative stuff coming from them also. Out of curiosity I've read a
few articles about
Jews 'Chosen people' and parts of their Talmud (Jewish bible) and found
Talmud very Reptilian oriented. Hardly any race loved Jews in the
former Soviet Union and made jokes about their behavior and the reason
for that was: their alien behaviour, STS - Service to Self.
Jews have been like a separate caste in every nationality of former
Union (more than 50 nationalities with their own languages). It is hard
to find an honest Jew. Over
the years I've been puzzled to find hundreds of Jewish and Arien
children born in
non Jewish and non Arien families, but in the families of
nationalities and white race (Arien?)
children to be born in Jewish families and on the contrary: Jewish
children being born in Arien families. Blending Jews with other
nationalities was to make
other nationalities to be more tolerant towards Jews and
Reminds me a parasitic bird
cuc - koo , who makes other birds to raise
its nestlings, by throwing other birds' eggs out of their nests and
placing its own egg into them. It was almost impossible to find in the
former Soviet Union a Jewish soldier, bricklayer, streetsweeper,
toilet cleaner and the like; but there were/are plenty of not very
bright generals, actors, artists, musicians, bankers, judges,
doctors or politicians. That
gave Jews a
head start to penetrate all countries and take control of them
financially. Noone in the world has been able to critizise Jews without
being punished somehow, why?
of Australian politicians also have
Jewish faces, why? I've seen it with my own eyes! More than 50
years of propaganda of 'Jews were the only nation murdered in
concentration camps during WW 2' made me nearly vomit and many
believed this outright lie. The Holocast fairy tale is still constantly
on TV to promote pity for Jews, but when Jews go to Israel for a
holiday, they themselves would write what a good time they had there:
the food, the entertainment, the hotels and the Mediterranian sea
10 years ago I thought :"What
hypocrites! How do Jews manage to fool the World for so long , sucking
the money from other nations for their personal gain, building Israel
armies with the help of USA and fighting the whole world?"
Each time I would open the
Webster's dictionary with pictures in it and I find only Jewish faces
of the most 'significant'
people in the history of the Humankind looking at me. Why? Don't we
have heroes of other nationalities who deserves being included into
this dictionary? That is how I thought then, but now I look at it more
like a game.
observation. There is an
identical behavior of most of Russian
Jewish females and American Jewish females especially in New York (I've
been there 3 times) and this is the pattern of an Orionized female,
which spreaded all over USA and most of the World. I know that from
my own experience: I (one of my Alters) was imitating Jewish
(Orionized) behaviour for
many years myself, till I finally broke that loop! How can you talk
about these things if you never experienced it yourself? That is why I
am talking about it now and I know that millions would agree with me.
And, as usual, the Jews penetrated Igor Charkovsky's movement.
They were heavily involved in 'helping' the Russian leader,
but never delivered underwater themselves.
Why can we talk
officially about other nationalities and still can't talk
about Jews especially these days? Why are they so fucking special, I
thought? Having full support of Orion Empire they (and members of
secret societies) can do whatever Reptilian Empire wants them to do.
After I made a thorough analysis I was shocked to see that
all my life I was surrounded by Jews (human, alien)
constantly monitoring, programming and interfering with my life in
different disguises. And not just with me with other members of my
family: my mother, brother, sister and my son. I personally can
distinguish them among white Nordic races like Swedes, English, French,
Russians, white Americans and Australians, but I'm not capable to
differ them from Asian, Arab, Indian, South American, African,
Aborigine, American Indians etc.
I was always wondering
why Princess Ann and Prince Charles looked so Jewish? American
Hollywood has been always financially in the hands of Jews, providing
'wonna be actors/actresses' Jews with jobs and the Media has been
flooded with Jews, who, very rarely was/is a
good actress/actor, though they have been trying to make the
world beLIEve how 'brilliant' and 'gifted' they were/are compare to
other races. None of their paintings had any true value, but often sold
at auctions for millions of dollars. The same applies to their music:
little, what they composed has any value, but often to make themselves
to be wor-sheeped, they would stick their name to the work of someone
else. I remember been exposed to boring, greyish revolutionary,
communist's songs written by hundreds of Jewish
'composers/poets/singers' for 30 years. There was no life in their
'art'. You need to gain deep emotions and painful experiences to be
brilliant in Arts, but that is exactly what they don't like and don't
want. Even their 'famous' Einstein was not liked by Tesla and many
scientists found a lot of false information propagated by
Enstein. Tesla done so much and anybody hardly knows him,
Einstein, onthe contrary done very little and became a household name.
You open lots of books physics or other subjects and you will read
constant references: Einstein said this or Einstein wrote that, like he
is the smartest man on Earth, which is far from the Truth. Apart from
that there is a book about Einstein, where
the author is writing about Einstein's wife, who was also a Physisist,
whose ideas were used by her husband. These facts will be known to
everyone pretty soon, because noone would be able to pretend in the
place we are going to.
It's still the Game and it is still on, but not for long. I used
to be cranky with Jews, but not any more: I am a stage higher now.
There is a good website: http://www.shanghai-jews.com
, the page devoted to history of settlement of
Jews in Shanghai, China before, during and after the World War 2. The
way Jews settled in China was the same way
they settled everywhere.
And I repeat, that I
know that maybe our Higher Selves have Jews as their parts, as they
have some alien parts.
Today I saw an article about Jews dealings on
Internet, Australian Bigpond and posted here for you to read:
Clarify Holocaust Stance
Wednesday, February 04, 2009 » 01:25pm
called on Pope Benedict XVI to make a 'very clear' rejection of
Holocaust denials after a former bishop was rehabilitated by the
Her rare and public
demand came amid
increasing outrage among Germany's Roman Catholic leaders over the
Pope's decision to lift the excommunication of British-born Richard
Williamson, who questioned whether six million Jews were gassed during
the Nazi Holocaust.
Merkel said she 'does
there has been adequate clarification of the Vatican's position on the
Holocaust amid the firestorm of controversy that broke out after
Williamson's rehabilitation by the German-born pope.
Benedict last week
and indisputable solidarity' with Jews and warned against any denial of
the horror of the Holocaust, but several leading German bishops have
decried the German-born Pope's decision and called for Williamson's
rehabilitation to be revoked.
'I do not believe that
sufficient clarification has been made,' Merkel said.
The Vatican moved
quickly to counter Merkel's suggestion.
'The Pope's thinking on
of the Holocaust has been expressed very clearly,' said Vatican
spokesman Reverend Federico Lombardi.
He cited Benedict's
visit to a
synagogue during his first visit to Germany as Pope in 2005, a visit to
Auschwitz in 2006 and his remarks during last week's general audience.
Lombardi quoted from
what he called the Pope's 'unequivocal words' at that public audience.
'I hope that the memory
of the Shoah
leads humanity to reflect on the unpredictable power of evil when it
conquers the heart of men,' he quoted the pope as saying.
'May the Shoah be a
warning for all against oblivion, against denial or reductionism.'
Lombardi said that
audience 'the Pope himself clearly explained the purpose of lifting the
excommunication, which has nothing to do with any legitimisation of
positions denying the Holocaust, which were clearly condemned' by
The issue is
in Germany, where denial of the Holocaust is a crime and Roman Catholic
leaders have worked hard to restore relations with the Jewish community.
As a young man in
Germany, Benedict, then called Joseph Ratzinger, served briefly in the
Hitler Youth corps.
Cardinal Karl Lehmann,
the bishop of Mainz, called for an apology from 'a high level'.
'There must also be
those who are responsible for this,' Lehmann said in an interview with
broadcaster Suedwestfunk of the decision to rehabilitate Williamson.
consecrated by the late ultraconservative Archbishop Marcel Lefebvre
without papal consent.
The Holy See has said
that removing the excommunication did not imply the Vatican shared his
Williamson, in an
broadcast last month on Swedish state television, said historical
evidence 'is hugely against six million Jews having been deliberately
gassed in gas chambers as a deliberate policy of Adolf Hitler'.
He cited what he called
estimates of the most serious revisionists that 'between 200,000 and
300,000 perished in Nazi concentration camps, but not one of them by
gassing in a gas chamber.'
There is an article from "The Daily Telegraph", London, October 11,
1995. I just give you some extract from it:
To The Next World"
By Dr. Michio Kaku
scientists hail ever more accurate tests of Einstein's theory of warped
space, Einstein himself knew that his theory broke down at the instance
of the Big Bang. The theory had feet of clay.
Relativity was worthless, he realized, when it came to answering the
most embarassing cosmic question in all of the science: "What happened
before the Big Bang? Ask any cosmologist this question, and they will
throw up their hands, roll their eyes, and lament: "This maybe forever
beyond the reach of science. We just don't know...
There are two dominant religious mythologies. According to
Judaeo-Christian beLIEf, the universe had a definite beginning. This is
the Genesis hypothesis, in which the universe was hatched from a Cosmic
Egg. However, according to the Hindu-Buddist belief in Nirvana, the
universe is timeless; it never had a beginning, nor will it have an
However, I can calculate the probability that one day you might be
walking down the street, only to fall into a hole in space and enter a
belief is based on the Planetary Game with Time and Space conditions,
but as soon as you get out of the Game to a higher density and lose
your physical body, Time and Space will be over and you will see that
Hindu-Buddist belief will be working. You will know that there was no
Big Bang, because our Universe is timeless and never had a beginning or
an end. Beginning and End applies only to restrictive and artificial
Time and Space conditions. If
there is such a thing like 'big bang', then that could, probably, be
applied only to a physical universe. Robert Monroe was writing in his
last book that there wasn't Big Bang, but the energy in a form of
M-Field was always transmitting from the Emitter, LM).
Michio Kaku is a professor of theoretical physics at the City
University of New York and author of "Hyperspace: a Scientific Odyssey
through the 10th Dimension".
In year 2000 I remember a
strange incident which happened after I visited city's Local and
Federal Government (MP's) and Police Headquaters with a lot of
materials on NWO and alien activities in Bundaberg, Queensland. After
talking to Federal MP, a
female and showing her my materials (with the
website on sale of human meat) I was surprised again to see her
by fear! Why? I only asked her one question: "What are you
going to do about this?!" I was still so ignorant:
I didn't know then
that she was a Reptilian. I visited everyone I could and got no
results. A few days later another strange incident in the centre of the
city near were we live. A policeman
stopped us and asked the dates of our birthdays (I was with my
When we told him, he became so frightened and ran away. George ran
after him to ask him why he needed our full dates of birth, but
couldn't reach him. I'm still puzzled.
in 2003 I had another real sign of Synchronicity. 'Accidentally'
I found a book of Carloc Castaneda "The Art Of Dreaming" which was
bought years ago and I never was interested in it before. Reading it
got me out of
the Spiritual cul-de-sac I was in. Just after a few pages I became
hooked on Castaneda. Read all his books in English twice and in
Russian later. All the thoughts I've written so far are the thoughts I
had at the time, but they obviously changed: I became wiser.
2003 my new passion became books of Carlos
Castaneda. I found a lot of wisdom and fun reading them, the only thing
I couldn't handle (it didn't match wth R.Monroe information) was the
that most of us after death were joining an Eagle Force and only
powerful sorcerers could avoid it and live on for a thousand of years
or more. Most of them have been secretly serving Orion Empire to this
day. I learned mavelous things from
those books, about female role in the Sorcerer's world (though still
thoroughly covered), but not much about the origin of the Eagle Force.
still a very obsecure subject, but knowing how popular an image of
Eagle is with secret societies, I later connected the dots. Usually,
when it is a secret, it smells negative: service to self; humans would
be used for greed and power of selected groups of humans and negative
aliens. But even this way and with great difficulty Balance can be
spread. Later I found more hidden defects with C.Castaneda's books. I
also noticed that there was no picture of this writer in any of his
books: someone was interested in hiding his true personality.
didn't know then, that books
of Castaneda would make me to start writing newsletters to Tensegrity
practitioners all over the World. In 2004 I joined Cleargreen
organization based on the teachings of Carlos Castaneda (the main, tiny
centre is in Los-Angeles). The branches of it are in every major city
and it's spreading like cancer all over the Earth. Many things I've
learnt from these books were very useful to me at that point of my
development (like Recapitulation). I liked the books a lot, but
coudln't understand the contradictions with other books I was reading.
Castaneda was kind of separate from everyone else. His books were not
connecting (at least I couldn't connect them), not adding to the
mutial common flow of other books I read. That what I thought then, but
later I could connect them to the knowledge of other books.
I've never read about
'Flyers', 'Assembledge point', 'Eagle Force' anywhere else. But don't
claim to read all the literature in the world.
magical passes and recapitulation a lot and felt great! I wanted to
meet other practitioners all over the Globe.
workshop (first one), February , 2004
In February 2004 I arrived to Los Angeles to participate in Tensegrity
workshop for the first time and, of course, I was very excited. There
is worldwide Cleargreen organization supposedly based
C.Castaneda books and ideology and their workshops are called
hotel, where I stayed was a 10 min. walk to the ultra - modern
Conventional Centre near
Disney World (cluster of negative places) in Anaheim area
where Tensegrity seminar was suppose to take place. I was puzzled,
why the seminar was organized in the most negative city area, instead
of somewhere outside city, in the country , like where usually Don
Juan's apprentices inc. Carlos would practice Magical Passes? The
morning of the seminar arrived and to my horror I couldn't get up from
low frequencies of electromagnetic stream of rays nailed me to the bed
making me very sick.
obviously did not like the idea of me going to the Seminar and
I knew that Negative forces use all kind of weapon and powerful mind -
techniques to badly affect or kill people at a distance.The thought of
coming from Australia specially to attend this seminar and fail,
because of these fucking Rays, made me very angry! I forced myself to
walk to the Convention Centre where a Congress devoted to babies took
place the same day only on another floor. I was astonished to see
hundreds of young females pushing prams with babies through the main
entrance of the Convention
Centre to participate in that Show! Finally I got where I
big Hall, where the workshop was about to take place. Through an incredible pain, I
started Magical passes with the crowd of practitioners. And only in
the crowd I felt a relief from excruciating pain. It was probably
diffcult for the Negatives to expose me to the Rays while moving in the
crowd. Next shock I got after a couple of lousy speeches female and
male instructors gave to the
which had no
value in Castaneda's books and the most important issues were simply
avoided! We were doing floor magical passes, which have never been
mentioned by Castaneda in his books or in the book "Magical Passes",
supposedly based on Castaneda's passes, but printed after his death.
I disliked lying on my
back with open legs for 20 min.,(reminded me sex, abductions and
abortions). That gave the opportunity for the instructors to choose the
most spiritually gifted girls and guys from the participants for their
agenda (and for Low Astrals to have intercourse with you while you
were in this position ). "This is the most vulnerable position for a
warrior " I thought and got up, then found a chair and started
observing the whole 'show'. At the interval I told the instructors
about my disappointment with the seminar and a
desire to ask the instructor 3 questions at the questions time. Then
instructor said to the other: " Oh, you wouldn't get rid of this one!"
They 'agreed' to give me this opportunity, but took all the microphones
and speakers out just
before the questions time started. Without a microphone noone could
hear me (all the walls and the floors were carpeted).They also moved
all 3 groups away from me, obviously scared of my questions. I was
devastated and did not press any further, everything was clear to me:
Cleargreen as organization was cheating naive practitioners. They were
not there to propagate noble ideas of Carlos Castaneda, they had more
sinister agenda (I thought then). There were other
things I noticed there which only
confirmed my realization that I was such a fool to beLIEve in
Cleargreen. But I still trust most of C.Castaneda's ideas.
very confused, but later,
the same year I would attend other 2 Tensegrity Seminars in the same
year 2004, to make sure, that my first impression was
workshop, August, 2004
In Jew- lie 2004 my husband and I went to Jew-pan and then to
Holland, Jew-many, France, Bel-jew-m, Switzerland.
(Amsterdam) we had a Tensegrity workshop, met a few Ass-tralians there.
pretty boring again.
The same 'witless' exercise ('witness' exercise), Lightsiders
stuff, meant to share your thoughts, dreams and experiences with a
stranger who was next to you.
"What if this person was an
informant who was working for Cleargreen?" I thought and felt a lot of
negativity generated in the Hall. It was clear to me: negative Orion
Empire got their hands into that organization too, and not just
Cleargreen, but all Martial Arts organizations all over the Globe; it's
enough just to look at their symbols (a snake). I didn't play that
I was mostly observing.
Another favorite activity of Cleargreen 'instructors' was to
advise their members to write to them about their spiritual
achievements, dreams, thoughts, impressions of workshops and actions of
Reminds me confessions in a church and promotion of informers. I saw
that as another trap.
"That's exactly what Reptilians want: to keep an eye and to tighten
sequrity screws on you even more" I thought and gave the instructors a
letter of my impressions of Los Angeles' workshop, I'd prepared for
I really didn't give a shit and described the shock I had when
I saw how far all those beautiful, noble ideas from the books of
deviate from the reality of workshops. The whole workshop was a real
I looked at the 'instructors': that was a joke! This time they were not
the same ones; they looked
pathetic: one of them was a overweight Jewish guy (most likely from
Hollywood), who could hardly move the
body, but nevertheless was trying to teach us Magical Passes, which he
hardly knew. Another 'instructor' looked like a very old female, whose
energy was failing! Then these 'instructors' gave us 'a Jewish musical
What is surprising to me now that they showed a sequence of Passes of
'mixing female and male
different genders) together, but at that time I had no desire to mix my
with someone else's inc. my husband's. I felt like I was playing some
in a theatre. Everything felt shitty, I felt out of place.
After Amster-damn Tensegrity workshop, in August, George and I visited
countries in Europe, the last was Switzerland. We were flying out of
Zoo-rich airport where I filmed a huge photo (3m long by 2m wide) of a
face of a pretty European girl who had eyes with
Vertical Slits like a
snake or a crocodile or some cats. This photo was hanging on the wall
, where hundreds of people could see it !
It was for the first time
that I saw such a thing in public (we still have the video). Nobody
paid any attention, except George: he made a hissy fit that I
videotaped it! It made me wonder about popular show "Cats" , who is
really on the stage? In this reality aliens are using black
glasses to cover their vertical slits, but in the movie "They live"
humans were using dark glasses to see aliens mixed with a crowd of
humans. Later I've read in "Dulce Papers" that such glasses could be
bought for $ 2000, but I didn't know where to buy. "Fashion to wear
dark glasses and vertical slit contact lenses was created by negatives
to confuse us even more" I thought. "Secret Societies' members wouldn,t
hang this picture in the airport for nothing" I assumed. It looked
like a signal for exposing themselves: time was pressing them too.
I knew that all this time exchanging Earth humans for hybrids with more
Reptilian genetics was taking place.
I was thinking: " Struggle of
our Universe against Itself is not expressed just in a form of planets
or races or worlds fighting against each other, but for us this
struggle was concentrated on Earth, where It started from Nature of
Earth, then countries, organizations, people in the same country,
neighbours, members of the family, even in our own body there was an
opposition: foregn installations, genetic commands and michrochips were
opposing our true mind, right side was opposing our left side of the
body and our left hemisphere of the brain was opposing our right
hemisphere. Creative abilities are the result of the struggle with
opposition. Creative abilities come from experiencing a lot of pain:
At least that I knew from personal experience. I was
staggered when I learnt that we were not
just fighting the implanted , parasitised, chemically, radioactively
and electromagnetically poluted, mind-controlled physical bodies. But
also the negative effects coming from other bodies
around the physical (etheric, emotional, mental, astral, celestial
etc.) full of holographic inserts in the most important major and
minor centres. And our Spirit was still winning!
As soon as we came
Ass-tralia , we joined Oztec and I've
written a few Newsletters to members of Oztec, the Australian branch of
"Cleargreen"), in 2004. I was choosing a rocky road. I needed
Internet, but before that I had no interest in Internet. In these
Newsletters I was describing the knowledge I got
and experience I gained. That was the only way to find someone on the
same wavelength. It didn't make Moderators very happy but I still got
some response. I had to do it even though George was against it. But
for me that was another experience preparing me for my own future
website, a way to express myself and get out of cul-de-sac I put
myself in by marriage to an alien. After a couple of months the
Moderators disconnected me
from Oztec website.
last Tensegrity workshop took place on 7th and 8th November, 2004
(surprisingly on the days of the Revolution of 1917, a negative day and
an old 'holiday' , when
everything's closed). These workshops have been very popular with
Russians. C.Castaneda books are translated into Russian and Italian by
computer and have a lot of twisting of ideas (but Monroe
books have been only computer-translated into Russian with the same
They have been using trained Russian females as
Instructors under a supervision of an American female, whom everyone
was wor-sheeping. And again a sense of enourmous boredom as soon as
they started the same 'Witless excise', their not very inspiring
lectures and Passes. What I described was my own opinion, because I had
high expectations from those workshops; others might have different
opinion about the same workshop: all depends how evolved you are.
After meeting a few proclaimed young Russian wonna be 'sorcerers' and
talking to them I started thinking:
"How naive all these
youngsters are, they remind me sheep!" And later:" Was
the feeling of boredom manufectured artificially, just to make me to
leave that place earlier or was plain boring for me?"
I was amazed, how Reptilians could very cleverly hide their
agenda behind wonderful ideas . The stuff members of
any government) are using beautiful words like Freedom, Love ,
Equality and some words from "Matrix 5" in their emails to
the members to attract people familiar with wording of "Matrix 5" !
was wondering: "How many true human members were among wonna be
'warriors' of Cleargreen organization? There was around
on the mailing
list around the World. Inspite of my frank letter, I've been still
newsletters with invitations for workshops with names like: "Sister
Brother Sun" or " Predator's Eye " (read Death star) and all the
bullshit which came with it .
I remember a powerful
Deja vu in
Switzerland in summer of 2004 . George
and I went to see one of the highest peaks of Alps, Materhorn, which
we've never seen before (not too far from Interlaken). We got
to the highest level of that mountain by the lift and got out to see
the view, then when we queued to get inside of the
building the memory of that place hit me.
I knew that I've been
here before !!! This mountain and all their High Tech set up:
lifts, buildings, chairlifts etc. felt very alien.
I found the same
with Australian Snowy mountains' ski resorts like Thredbo, Jinderbine,
Blue Cow etc. The energy was so bad that instead of 3 days of skiing
we managed only half a day the last time we were there. No wonder:
Canberra, the capital of Australia is a part of Snowy
Mountains. That made me think:"Are all famous ski resorts have
alien bases underneath and modernised skiing is just a bait to attract
more humans to that place?"
2 years later, in the summer I went to Russia and apart from visiting
Moscow, a female friend and I went to Russian's favorite desination:
Sochi and Adler on Black Sea fro a couple of weeks. Then I went by
myself to the local Caucasus mountains to see the lake and the famous
and very modern ski resort "Krasnaya Polyana". After spending a few
hours in the forest around the ski resort I found a couple of similar
strange places, set ups: tents, some tourists equipment, many faded
clothes/shoes and other belongings, covered with dust and no people
around, as if they were abducted or rushed from the place, hurriedly
everything behind. This place had/has a Portal to other dimensions.
There are many Portals in Caucasus Mountains and where you see military
actions are taking place, there you will find them: Kosovo, Afganistan,
Chechya, South Osetia, Iraq, Israel, Palestina to name a few.
Now I know why Sochi was chosen for 'Winter
Olympics' in 2014. I doubt that there will be any 'Olympics', because
we are getting close to 2012. This is just an excuse for the Russian
KGB/FSB government to reinforce, to modernise the part of the Caucasus
mountains around Sochi move masses of people to different
Coming back to the
3rd workshop, which I visited by myself.
later on my other trip to Moscow in Jew-lie 2005 I stopped in Dubai,
Emirates for a 3 days. At Dubai's airport the true Syncronicity took
place: while standing in a queue I had a brief encounter with a young
Indian guy. We exchanged our email addresses, his email address
consisted of a name and 999. Later I realized that he had connection to
All the trips to Russia in
recent years showed me big changes of life
in former Soviet Union, like cities as Moscow, Sochi, Petersburg, Murmansk, Caucasus mountains and
Black Sea, cities
of Volga river.
George came to Moscow in September to join me for William Buhlman's
workshop in USA , for which we paid in
advance. From Moscow we went to Amster-damn, Holland. At Moscow
airport's check point 3 females wanted to confiscate
our Takyon Capsules on our necks. I asked for a superviser. The
superviser came and asked
me about the purpose of Takyon Capsule. I had to tell him that it was
a 'Masonic Symbol' and he let us keep them (he, probably, was a Russian
mason) and we got through
In Amster-dump's negatives created a lot of problems for
us. Then we went to New York and for the first time I had my eyes
scanned and my fingerprints taken (apart from usual body and luggage
scan). I felt Draconian World Order there more than anywhere else.
love New York and felt at home there: it gave me a lot of hidden
memories of the places, especially Greenwich village and Brooklin. I
noticed that whenever Reptilans don't want me to see something on my
travels they would attack my bladder, so I would be running like mad
looking for a toilet. That happened in Central Parks of New York,
Paris, London, Brussel, Moscow, in cities of Jew-many and
Switzerland. While in New York we got a message of Buhlman's Workshop
cancelation (10 days before the actual workshop)! We were shocked
because we'd arranged everything and came to USA specially for that
reason. Why? I was suspicious again: someone again didn't want me to
what that workshop was all about or maybe because I was with George?
Me and George read Buhlman's books twice and were eager to learn
practically how to Astral travel. The organizers of the workshop, in
their emails were using 'God bless you' sometimes, which made me
suspicious, if it was not some religious workshop, without William
Buhlman. He kind of disappeared first to China, then Australia and
where is he now I don't know.
After a week in New York we went to Chicago by bus
overnight, as been planned, from the Central Bus Station in New York.
The bus was packed. A Negro busdriver
was implementing Martial Law right on the spot, in the bus, by giving
all of us an aggressive and lengthy speech what we must and mustn't do
(the demonstration was, probably, because I was there).
That was new to me and I thought: "Do all American bus drivers act
like that these days?" What was refreshing though , that a group of
Negroes was sitting at the back making fun of the busdrive, kind
of counteracting the atmosphere which had been created. Every his word
and gesture was comically copied by negro - passengers and a constant
laughter was so pleasing to my ears. And I thought: "It's so nice to
know that not everyone in USA lost their sense of humour!"
arrival to Chicago we hired a car and went for a week of exploration of
lake Michigan area, while at it. From Chicago we flew to Minniapolis
and hired a car
again to explore the city and the countryside. We visited very masonic
touristy place "House - on - the Rock". It felt like a place of human
with 'Infinity room' being an altar. The Negative energy of that place
was overwhelming. It
was mainly underground: many rooms and big halls, stuffed with all
kind of material posessions.
800 km of countryside looked almost lifeless. It reminded me Australia:
forests , hills , roads , houses with almost no people.
next flght was to Vancouver, Canada. In Minniapolis airport I had
my main event (October, 2005, I'm 58), that happened like a
powerful dream. The negativity of airports in USA is tremendous.
After checking in our luggage, George and I went to another hall for
body and personal luggage examination. While standing in the queue a
policeman came to us:
"You've been randomly selected" he told us and
pointed to a separate room with a separate group of security personel,
x-ray machine and a
metal gate we were suppose to go through. I had a bad feeling that
something was cooking up, that didn't surprised me after a few attacks
we'd experienced in Malasia, Russia, Holland, New York and Chicago).
Negative Aliens and those who are helping them definately didn't want
me to travel.
We were asked to take the shoes and coats off and I thought: "Next time
would have to go naked through that fucking gate!" Our personal
luggage (camera, wallets
etc. ) went through x-ray machine. Then I noticed that one of
the personel was smearing some jelly on the wallets and handles of bags
and camera (like in Heathrow airport 3 years ago). I told George to
pay attention on it a few times and then asked the guy to stop it.
That created a scandal. I told a bunch of security personel that they
were helping Reptilians in creating Martial Law on the whole planet and
other things. They called the police, who turned up in no time,
probably monitoring me all this time from some place else.
were saying that we didn't like an unknown substance to be put in our
shoes and smeared all over our personal things. I wondered what it was.
negro policeman (Reptilian) looked at my picture in my passport and
asked my name. Silly question demands a silly answer: he knew very
well who I was, he had my name written and my picture in front of him
and my full life-story on his computer, before he stoped me.
"Uncle Sam" I said. He had a hissy fit and I was accompanied by 3
policemen in hand - cuffs, bearfeet through the whole airport. While
walking I was telling them what I really thought about Orion Empire
(usually emotions make me to say what I think and I don't give a shit
about the consequences)
and that I had lived my life and I was not afraid of death and that
kill me any time. I knew too much about life after death and was
ready to vacate for a long time. Deep inside I hoped that they would
do it to finish my torments. I felt like I was cheating my Total Self.
"We are not going to kill you !" one of them said. That stopped me,
I couldn't believe it and started laughing. I understood the
Game, they were playing with me: the intimidation again. I wasn't a
advertisement for them though. Imagine an old overweight woman,
bearfeet, but nicely dressed in shackles laughing her lungs out all
the way through the airport where hundreds of people have been watching
her. I was asked if I used drugs to make me laugh. I said I didn't
and as a my own doctor advised them to take nothing but water. I was
in a small room with the small window in the door, where I was doing my
feet execises and a bit off singing, not to get bored. You can't
even die when you want it. Sometime later the door opened and a
cautious policeman asked me a strange question: "I know how
uncomfortable it feels in handcuffs. If I take them off would you
I thought: " Why was he so kind?" and said: "I always
When he took off my handcuffs I noticed FEAR in his eyes and
again I was puzzled: "Fear of me ?! Why? I have no fear of him and no
gun?" I had a feeling that I was in another Timeline, another World.
Policemen could definetely read my thoughts. He asked me to turn
around and put my hands on the wall. I thought that was a good
position for push ups. I think he used taser, because when I woke up
worried George turned up with the Negro policeman up appologizing that
I had a sleepless night and that was the reason
for my behaviour. I told them that I had a very good sleep. Then 3
policemen took us to the Departure Gate another way and shook George's
hand (like they were friends). That seemed strange, like everything
was staged. We were taken to the plane and flew to Canada.
R.Monroe. This was a very good example for me of Higher
We hired campervan in Canada and travelled in
USA and Canada, then
we went to Hawaii and home to Ass-tralia.
On my travels I've
seen a lot of
graffity in major cities of USA,
Europe, Russia and Australia. I feel that major events/changes are
written not only in crop circles, but also in Graffity for those
who understands the language .
End of 2005 and beginning of 2006 .
"Think and do is the operating productive combination, either mentally
or physically, in one or more energy systems. Inhibit , restrain or
block the flow of any such energy and it ceases to exist ". These
words of Robert Monroe made me to start again writing Newsletters for
the members of Cleargreen in 2005, this time: to hundreds of people
in different countries, all over the Globe in Russian and in English ,
because I thought that this bunch of people was the most prepared for
this kind of writing. I hoped that my emails would get only to those
who needs them (their Total Selves would see to it). I was writing
my thoughts about things I've read in my materials and experienced in
life"Search till you merge with your Total Self" was my motto.
George was against as usual.
Robert Morningsky talked
about Castaneda on one of the videos made after
his workshop in Sydney in 90's (I've got them)
After reading M 5 Golden edition ,
vol. 1 in 2004 I watched that video again and I couldn't believe it!
Hopi, half Appachi) was talking a lot about females, saying that they
should become leaders! He was a genuine speaker. According to him,
Hopi Indians always had Matriarchat
and males needed to combine male and female energies by doing all
housechores and upbringing children. I had totally different views
about Hopi Indians before. I've read some of his materials on Internet
and later posted them on my website.
I got my personal email address and
things improved: I was becoming more and more independent from my
husband till I, finally, divorced him. I met a few interesting people
through the life I wasn't lonely, but
spiritually I've been lonely for all my life.
also met a few crossed-eyed people in my life
and I found them alien from what they were saying to me. Meetings with
always unexpected and I felt uncomfortable and disoriented. It seems
logical to hide your eyes this way to make you confuse, though there
are normal humans among them: this variety of experiences is valid for
our Total Selves.
Arizona Wilder, Andy Pero,
Cathy O'Brien and many others admited that they were forced to be
involved in negative actions like masonic
rituals, sex, assasinations, helping aliens to conduct genetic
atrocities etc. consciously or unconsciously, willingly or unwillingly.
They accepted that. Their Total Selves allowed these things to
happen to them for gaining more Balance (50% positive and 50 %
negative energies). It was all good to read and accept this kind of
things, but when it came to my personal life it was damn hard
(Lightsider loop), but I am all right now. That I, like most of the
players of this Game, was having a lot of experience as Victim and
Victimizer and now I am neither: I overcame that Loop.
also learned that all of us
were doing the same (Victim-Victimizer mode) when we were
aliens before we started this
Planetary Game as humans, that all Graduating Higher Selves have all
nationalities (inc. Jews) in their clusters
for experience. Well, after reading this I became
more tolerant, but alert. I was used like Arizona Wilder, Cathy
O'Brien, Cisco Wheeler, Brice Taylor, Kathrine Sullivan, Pat (from "The
Mars Records" by
Stephanie Relfe) and many
others for sinister things the memory of which was mostly erased. And
I'm glad that in 2006, after many years I've accepted that. I don't
want to be 100% positive Lightsider anymore.
I learned a lot from the
books of Robert Monroe and I knew that our Total Selves value unique
negative and positive
experiences for the Balance. That was a relief!
and 2) Banana plantations with me at the front in Coffs Habour, NSW;
similar plantations are
in Queensland and around the place and on our block were I live at
present (blue plastic bags are put around the bunches of bananas to
stop the birds from damaging them);
one of the
beautiful beaches with salt-water pool for children in Central Coast
4), 5) and 6) pictures
of me and two of the Alters of my son Robert with an emu and our puppies
My Travelling Around
In 2003 all 3 of us (myself,
my son and my husband George) decided to go around Australia
visit the States, which we never saw: Northern Territory, South and
Western Australia. I had in mind to meet more Aborigines and wild life.
We flew to Alice Spring, the capital of Northern Territory and the
place of the famous Pine Gap international facility, apart from the
base there is also a jail there. We hired a car to visit well known
Ayers Rock and Olgas and discovered that there is another, similar and
even bigger Rock a few km away from Ayers Rock. It has another
name, which I forgot. And I still don't know the origins of that
structure (Ayers Rock), only know that if it is a 'Sacred' with
Aborigines place, it smells alien and has a peculiar, unpleasant
It was really strange to see an elaborate smogasboard in the resort's
restaurant a few km away from Ayers Rock in the middle of nowhere. How
all that food was getting there if we didn't see planes or delivery
trucks? Most likely it was done by the underground Maglev trains
(Magnetic Levitation), which are criss-crossing all the continents
underground and under oceans with the speed of 10000km per hour.
We tried to visit Pine Gap, but there was a forbidding sign on the road
leading there (we were not invited). It was also forbidden to take
pictures of Aborigines and we couldn't understand why. I suspect that
there are a lot of clones and minions among them (minions are humans
with animal soul). We were
harassed by a group of aborigines
females, who were fighting with each other in the centre of Alice
Spring next to their Council as if the michrochips in their brains were
triggered as soon as we turned up there. The whole place was very hot
and very Reptilian and I feel it was in one of Parallel Earths.
You can go on a highway for hours and see only a
couple of roadhouses with almost no cars and signs like this:
Aboriginies, Frilled Lizard,
Thorny Devil and Ayer's Rock
we flew to Adelaida, the capital of South Australia, where we
again hired a car and visited the coastline and outback. It is very
flat and has numerous seawater evaporating fields and I thought that
the salt from these fields would be enough for more that one Earth,
where does it go (probably supplying some of the Parallel Earths)? I
found South Australia much more picturesque than
the part of Northern Territory we visited. We found lots of people with
caravans, travelling around Australia all year round (going from one
Universe to another one without noticing anything), because of warm
climate and lack of snow, unless in the mountains of
winter. We visited a few nice places there in winter time of July (it
is too hot for the rest of the year), but the most enjoyable was
Western Australia. We flew again to beautiful Perth, the capital of
Western Australia, visited Fremantle and hired a big and comfortable
Campervan, which was driven by George for the first time and quite
successfully. George has never stopped surprising me with his abilities
to be able to do so many different things and often teach me to do
We visited so many beautiful places of Western Australia like: the
picturesque coastline of Southern and Indian Oceans - Albany, Denmark,
George is near our boat in Bundaberg Region
River in our region
About my connection to
written somewhere that I didn't follow any guru in my life, but
now I would say that in a way I did follow "Matrix 5" author and Val
Valerian's website for a few years, till that shamanic spell was
broken, but a huge blow to me had to happen in order to be released. I
understood, that I didn't have to follow anybody. I needed to be
myself: the last loop was broken!
I've posted a lot of material on this subject under "Hidden Faults of
Matrix 5" on a few links of this
website: My Thoughts, My Insights; Psychology of Multiple
Personality 'Disorder'; More Truths about Women;
5" Book Analysis;
Living on different timelines simultaneously is not easy and makes you
a bit confused sometimes in terms of timing.
I don't quite remember now, but I feel that the first (blue) edition of
"Matrix 5", edited by Val Valerian, I read at the end of 2003-beginning
of 2004. Half of that book was George Green's "Handbook for the New
Paradigm". It made some impression on me, but for some reason I quickly
forgot about it. A year later I bought from Val the first volume of the
new Golden edition of "Matrix 5" and found some interesting facts and
some biased bullshit in it. I wrote a letter to Val about my
impressions, but he rejected it, like many other letters sent
Because the book was edited by Val Valerian, whom I
(I bought all his Matrix books), I started doubting my own judgement:
I got under the influence of these 2 men: the author of
5" and Val Valerian and bought another 2 volumes. My personal views on
life started changing drastically under the influence of these books. I
became rougher to the females and to males in my own family. My ego
inflated and I started thinking that I was above the others (one of
those 'Chosen ones'), because I know much more than others. I tried to
imitate the "Matrix 5's"author rude language and behaviour. I even
persuaded others to read Val's website and buy "Matrix" books. Under
that shamanic spell I stopped thinking independently and joined the
group of "Matrix 5" followers. Though the author was constantly saying
that he was not a guru, but he behaved like one and still does: he
can't live without attention,
without his followers,
power over others (the ultimate aphrodisiac). He needs, to change into
a more balanced individual.
After divorcing my husband (though I still love him) I decided to move
to another State (Victoria) and which turned out to be in Bendigo: one
cities of that state. I rented a run down house in the outskirts of the
city, because I didn't have much money left, and thought I would start
a new life away from radioactively polluted part of the Coast I lived
in. I wanted to be independent.
George and I took our cars with small trailers, packed with my stuff
and moved it from Queensland to Victoria (3000 km)
December 2007. On the way, through the outback of Australia,
encountered an unusually powerful thunderstorm with pouring rain and
cyclonic wind, but
eventually we got through. Then I didn't know that that was a warning
for me, but
we still persisted.
The Controllers didn't like my decision to change the place and live
alone. They would arranged things the way that I would eventually give
up and return to that anomaly place on the coast of Queensland, where I
lived before. Even that place was not an accident: I was driven to that
place, because of my desire to live in anomaly place and that was what
I got and now I couldn't change anything. My son and I have been too
assets in terms of time-travel, living simultaneously in different
worlds and having so many different human and non-human personalities;
the anomaly place helped to achieve it. There are many anomaly
places on Earth, where the Time Fabric is broken and I named a few on
this website on different links. There is also a lot of material
written about anomaly places where people and objects disappear to
Parallel Universes, Alternative Realities/Worlds, different Timelines.
like 'atomic bombs'
Thursday, May 21, 2009 » 02:22pm
Devastating February bushfires that killed 173 people generated enough
energy to fuel 1,500 atomic bombs, the bushfires royal commission has
Bushfire behaviour analyst Dr Kevin Tolhurst told the commission the
fires were like '1500 atomic bombs the size of Hiroshima'.
'It's an enormous amount of energy,' he said.
Dr Tolhurst estimated the fire moved at a speed of about 120km/h, which
was about the same speed estimated on Ash Wednesday.
In some areas, the blaze spotted 35km ahead of the main fire.
Dr Tolhurst said it was important to evaluate a fire on a three
dimensional level, taking into account not just surface winds but upper
winds created by the plume of smoke above a fire.
He showed the commission photos of trees that had been snapped off
about three to four metres above ground level in the February 7 Black
Saturday bushfires by these types of winds.
'You would have needed winds of 120km/h or more to produce that,' he
The commission also viewed graphic footage of the Black Saturday
bushfires captured by cameras at four locations around Victoria.
The cameras were controlled from Melbourne and in particular captured
the Murrindindi blaze that obliterated Marysville.
The hearing continues.
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